When I busted through the curtains I saw Dean laying there and he looked fine. I walked up to him and took his hand in mine and I smiled down at him. He opened his eyes and smiled up at me. “I am going to take you home and you will be safe.” I said,
“Okay” He answered smiling up at me, then we went home and everything was okay.
That’s what I thought was going to happen, but didn’t, it didn’t happen at all.
When I busted through the curtain I saw Dean lying on a metal table. He was all bloody and there were doctors all around him. I didn’t know what was going on but I tried to get closer to him. I started pushing through the doctors to get to Dean when I heard someone yell “Get her out of here!” I finally got through and that was when I saw Dean had big gashes on his arms that kept bleeding. They were trying to stich him up but it wasn’t working, the blood just kept coming. “Dean!” I yelled, I guess he heard me because I saw him look over to me and give me a small smile, then his eyes shut and his head fell back. Then I felt someone grabbed me from around my waist and they were trying to pull me out of the room. I kept yelling “Dean!” as I was being dragged out of the room. I didn’t know who it was but they were about to get hit. When we got out of the room I turned around and saw Luke looking at me with tears in his eyes. I then turned around and I saw Skip sitting on a couch with his head in his hands. I was angry and upset and I just wanted to know what happened to Dean, and Skip knew what happened.
I started walking over to Skip when Jai stopped me. “Wait, I th-“he was then cut off by someone who asked “Are you Dean Cobalt’s sister?” I looked behind me to see a doctor standing there, he was with Dean in that room. “Yes” I answered shakily, he then pulled me aside and I saw that he was covered in blood, but not as much as Dean was. I could feel the tears building up as I remembered Dean on that table. “When can I take my brother home?” I asked as the tears started falling from my eyes. The doctor gave me a sympathetic look then said “You won’t be taking your brother home.” He said and he looked down. “Today? Well what about tomorrow?” I asked. “No. You won’t be taking him home at all because,” No, this can’t be happening. “listen, your brother had very deep gashes on his wrists and up his arms, he lost a lot of blood and,” I could tell the doctor was struggling to get out what he needed to say, so I finally asked “Is Dean dead?”
The doctor looked at me “Yes, Dean is dead. I am very sorry.” Then he walked away leaving me with so many questions. I didn’t know what happened or why there were gashes in the first place or why so much blood was lost. He left me there with all of these questions running through my mind, he left me there all alone.
I didn’t know what to do so I did the only thing I could think of. I walked back to the room that Dean was in. When I went in I saw Dean laying on the table. He was covered in blood still but his face looked so peaceful. I walked up to him ignoring the doctor that was in there trying to clean up. I took his face in my hand and he still felt warm. I picked up his arms and saw the gashes, they were so wide and deep, I could even see the bone. What did he do? I looked back to his face and it hit me, Dean is dead and he is never coming back. “No! You can’t be. You can’t.” This time the tears were like a waterfall. “Come on Dean, wake up. We have to go home now. Wake up.” I felt like I was trying to wake him up out of a deep sleep but he wasn’t waking up. I finally gave up on trying to wake him up but I was still shaking him “No Dean no, why did you leave me? Everyone leaves me, everyone. Come back to me Dean, come back. Please Dean, come back.” I fell to my knees and I was holding Dean’s hand when I suddenly felt someone kneel down next to me. I looked over to see a very sad Skip. “I am so sorry Alex.” He said as he started crying again. I looked back at Dean and I got angry. I stood up and I started yelling. “You left me! How could you leave me, you said you would be here when I needed you and I need you now. Dad’s gone, Roman is dying and now you, you are dead! You weren’t supposed to die! You were supposed to stay with me and help me and I would help you. You left me, and you left Skip! He was your friend, all of these guys were your friends and you left them, you left us all! Why Dean, Why.” I started crying again and I ran out. I ran right past Luke and the others, I heard them yell after me but I couldn’t be there, I just couldn’t.
I didn’t stop running until I saw Peter MacCallum Cancer Center. I didn’t know where else to go. I would have gone to see dad but his tombstone is next to mums back in Sydney and I didn’t want to see Melody because she didn’t even come with me to see Dean and she would probably just blame me for everything, so I came here. When I got to Roman’s room he looked a bit surprised and he greeted me with a warm smile but then it dropped as soon as he saw that I had been crying. I pulled up a chair next to him and sat down.
“What’s wrong?” He asked grabbing my hand, I looked up at him and I could feel a sob rack through my body as the tears came like rain during a thunder storm.
“He left.” Were the only words that I could get out. Roman looked confused but then it clicked, he looked around the room and saw that Dean wasn’t with me. “Where is Dean?” The concern in his voice was impossible to miss. I looked up at him and when I tried to tell him, nothing came out. Roman didn’t ask again, he just waited until I answered him. “He’s dead” I croaked out as another sob racked through my body.
Roman’s face fell and all the life that was in his eyes died and he just stared at me, he didn’t say anything but the pain on his face was evident. We both sat there for what felt like forever taking in the fact that Dean is gone.
“How?” He finally asked breaking the silence.
“I don’t know. No one told me. Melody didn’t even come to the hospital with me. Luke, Jai and Beau did.” I answered, the tears weren’t as heavy but they were still there.
“That was nice of them. So, when did this happen?” He asked trying to figure everything out.
“Not too long ago, it was after I told him about you. After I told him he walked off. I tried to stop him but he didn’t listen to me, he said he wanted to be alone.” Then it hit me “I could have stopped him, if I was with him he wouldn’t be dead. It’s my fault. Just like it is my fault that dad is dead. It’s always my fault.” I put my head in my hands. I could have just killed myself right there and then.
Roman grabbed my hands taking them away from my face. I looked up at him and the pain was still obvious but I could also see anger in his eyes. “This is not your fault. You tried to stop him but you couldn’t so don’t you dare blame yourself. Dean would not want you to feel like this.” He said and he started to cry.
“Okay.” Was all that came out. I looked at him and I realized that Roman was going to die in a week. I was losing everyone around me and there was nothing I could do to stop it.
“Melody didn’t go to the hospital with you?” He asked whipping tears away sounding a little mad.
“No, it was just Luke, Jai, Beau and I.” I answered looking down. I heard him whisper “Unbelievable” as he grabbed the phone next to his bed, “Does she know about Dean yet?” I shook my head no and he started dialing a number on the phone.
I sat there looking down and I could feel him looking at me. He hung up the phone and he reached his hand out and placed it in mine, “What’s on your mind?” I didn’t want to tell him because I knew it would hurt him but it came out anyways. “Everyone is leaving me.” I answered as I busted out in tears again. Roman was silent and I knew it was because he knew that I was right. First mum, then dad, now Dean and Roman is next. Melody and I were the only ones left and we barely saw each other because she worked so much. I looked back to Roman and his face said it all ‘I know, I’m sorry’
Just then I heard people bust through the door. I turned around to see Luke, Jai, Skip and Beau standing there. “See I told you she would be here.” Luke said to them. They all were out of breath and all of their faces were red. I looked over to see Roman smiling at them. I looked back to see Luke grabbing a chair and pulling it up next to me. I grabbed his hand and he gave it a small squeeze. I looked over at the other guys and I saw that Skip had changed his shirt which was a good thing because if Roman saw that he would end up asking Skip a million questions. Then I noticed that they were all staring at Roman the same way Luke did the first the he met him, shocked and sad.
I turned back to Roman and he was looking at Luke and said “Take care of her for me please. She is my baby sister and I can’t let anything happen to her.” When he said that my heart broke a little more. I looked back at Luke and he had tears in his eye. “I will, I promise.” I looked back to Roman and he gave me a small smile and I tried my best to smile back. “Come see me in a couple of days okay?” he asked and I shook my head okay and then we all left.
