Luke POV:
“She just left?” James asked surprised.
“Yeah.” I said thinking back to Alex yelling at the broken picture on the floor, “She told me to take care of her then she was gone.”
“I can’t believe she did this to her!” Skip yelled as he got up and started pacing back a forth.
As soon as I got Alex in her room and asleep I called the guys and had them come over so I could tell them what happened. I thought they all deserved to know, especially Skip. He was angry and so were the others. I was also but I was also a bit upset because now Alex was alone. She didn’t have anyone but us. Her family was gone.
“What do you think is going to happen to Alex? I mean she is already so… lost.” Jai explained looking off into space.
He was right, what is going to happen to Alex. I can’t bear seeing her miserable all the time. I love her, I just want her to be happy.
“Well we are here for her. We will help her out in every single way we can. We are not letting her go through this alone.” Skip explained still pacing back a forth.
“Skip’s right. She needs us now more than ever.” James acknowledged.
“I know.” I said putting my head into my hands. I suddenly felt a hand on my shoulder and I looked up to see Jai next to me and that was when I realized I was crying. “It will be okay man, she will get through this. She is strong.” He said trying to calm me down.
“Yeah, she will be fine.” Beau said looking up at us, “Hey why don’t we go get her up and see if she wants to go out and do something?” Beau asked looking at us all.
“Why not. What’s they worse she can say, no?” Skip said walking over to the stairs. We all got up and Skip stopped at the stairs and moved letting me go up first. When we got to her door I cracked it open a bit. I looked on the bed but it was empty. I cracked the door open more and saw Alex standing in front of her mirror. She was wearing a coral button up shirt that was a bit see through and you could see her black spaghetti strap tank top under neither her shirt, with black jeans and black wedges. Her hair was straight and from what I could make out she had her make up done. She looked gorgeous but I didn’t know why she was all dressed up. She didn’t see me walk in and I don’t think she heard me either. When I walked over to her she looked up at me and then back at herself. She had a look of desire and longing. I wrapped my arms around her and looked in her eyes. I saw pain in them still but she still had that look on her face, it was like she was looking for something, or someone.
“What are you doing baby?” I whispered in her ear. I felt the shiver go down her back and I smiled to myself a little. I loved the way I made her feel, it made me feel alive.
“I’m looking.” She stated as she continued looking at herself,
“What are you looking for?” I asked pushing my head into her neck caressing her neck with my lips and I felt the goose bumps on her skin rise.
“Me” She answered and I stopped.
I looked at her but she was still staring at herself. I didn’t understand what she meant. ‘Me’. It kept echoing in my head and I couldn’t shake it. I looked over to the guys who were now standing in the doorway and they looked puzzled also, well except for Skip. He looked like he understood what she was looking for. I looked back her and she was playing her hair, twirling it in her fingers and pulling on it a bit.
“Alex, why are you looking for yourself?” Skip asked, I looked over to him and he was looking at her expectingly. She didn’t look over at him though, her eyes stayed on herself. It was almost like she couldn’t look away.
“Because I’m lost.” She answered scanning her body with her eyes “So lost” she mumbled.
When I heard her say that something in me snapped and I started crying. I had my head on her shoulder and I felt her turn around and pull me into her. She rubbed my back and shhh’ed me, telling me everything was going to be okay, but I knew it wasn’t. She was lost and so was I. Without her I was lost. I missed her smile and her laugh, the way her eyes lit up when she talked about her family, I missed her. I am crazy for her but she is so hurt. Will I ever get her back?
I still had my head on her shoulder when I heard her whisper something. I couldn’t understand what she was saying but then I heard the door shut then another hand fall on my back. I looked up to see Skip next to Alex with the same look as before. Alex finally pulled away making me look at her. When I looked at her face I saw life. She looked concerned but life was in her eyes.
“What’s wrong babe?” She asked cupping my face in her hands. I let my face rest in her hands as I thought of an answer. I looked over to Skip who was giving me the ‘just tell her’ face. I sighed a little then took her hands in mine, “I was just upset because you said you were lost.” I explained looking down at our hands.
She put her hand under my chin and made me look at her, “Just because I am lost doesn’t mean I am gone forever. I am hurt and I know that you are having a hard time seeing me in pain but I will be okay. I promise.” She said with a reassuring smile. The thing was, was that I did see life in her, yes I saw sadness and anger but I also saw love. I wrapped my arms around her and pulled her into me as she wrapped her arms around me “I love you Alexandria.” I whispered in her ear and I could feel her smile, “I love you too Luke”
“Alright. Enough of this love fest. Let’s go do something now shall we.” Skip said with enthusiasm.
“What?” Alex asked pulling away looking a bit shocked.
“Yeah, we all came up here to see if you wanted to go do something, but since you’re dressed I guess you won’t mind us taking you out.” I said with a smile as I looked her up and down. She did really look gorgeous.
“Oh alright. That’s cool.” She said grabbing her bag. She didn’t sound excited but I knew that she would have fun. As we were all walking out of her room I grabbed her by her waist “You look gorgeous.” I said kissing her cheek. I heard her giggle and she said “Yeah because I actually did something with myself.” “No, you are beautiful no matter what, but today you look gorgeous.” I said as I planted another kiss on her cheek and I felt her smile.
When we got down stairs Beau, James and Jai were staring at me but I blew it off “So what are we going to do today?” I asked as I pulled Alex closer into me.
“Oh we already planned it out.” James said with a smile. I looked at Alex and she tried to give her best ‘I’m excited’ smile but failed.
As we walked to the door I stopped Alex and kissed her. I missed her touch, her lips, I missed being able to pull her closer and feeling her body go weak into mine. I missed her kiss, but most of all I missed her and I was glad to have her back, well kind of.
