The drive home was long and silent. I made Beau give me my keys so I could drive because I couldn’t be stuck in that back seat thinking about everything that just happened, I had to focus on something else. So I drove. At first Luke fought with me about it but he eventually gave in.
I didn’t turn the radio on, and when someone said something to me I didn’t speak. I couldn’t, I had to focus on driving, not on anything else. When I pulled into the driveway I sat there staring at the front door. I looked next to me and saw Luke staring at me. He gave me a small smile “It’s going to be okay.” He said as he opened his door. He walked over and opened my door for me. When I got out of the car he pulled me into him and held me there for a second. I took in everything about him, his smell, the way his strong arms wrapped around my body, the way he caresses my neck with his lips when he hugs me. It was then that I realized I couldn’t lose him. He had been here for me through everything and I can’t afford to lose him either. I squeezed him tighter and he gave me a kiss on the forehead. He loosened up and I was upset, I didn’t want to let go. But I did. He grabbed my hand and we walked towards the door.
When we got to the door I couldn’t move, I was frozen in front of it. What will happen when I walk in? What will Melody do? What will I do? I turned around to see all the guys standing there, including James. I don’t know when he got here but you could see he was upset. I looked at Luke “I can’t do it.” I croaked out as I started to cry again.
“Shh, it’s okay. Everything will be okay.” He said as he pulled me into him. He pulled away a little and put his hand under my chin and made me look up at him “You can do it. We are all here for you, we won’t let anything happen, okay?” He said as he looked deep in my eyes. I loved his eyes, they always seemed to help me relax. “Okay” I said.
I turned to the door and took a deep breath. When I opened the door I was hit with the familiar scent of Melody, brown sugar and vanilla. As I stepped in I looked around quickly to see if Melody was around, I didn’t see her but I could hear her. She was crying in the kitchen. I wanted to go comfort her but she wasn’t one who liked to be comforted when she was upset. I remember when mum died Roman and dad tried to comfort her but she blew them off, making them leave her room and not come back until her door was open. But I still wanted to see her, make sure she was okay. I started walking over with the guys right behind me. As I got closer to the kitchen her sobs became louder and louder. When I finally got to the entrance of the kitchen I saw her sitting at the table with her phone in her hand. I’m guessing that she just got off the phone with Roman by the way she was crying.
“Hey” I muttered, she snapped her head up as soon as she heard me and glared at me, and the look she gave me was cold and lifeless. Tears were still streaming down her face as she glared at me. I didn’t understand why she wasn’t talking to me, I thought she would at least say something but instead she stood up and went out to the deck leaving me there feeling like the worst sister in the world. As I started crying again I turned around to see all the guys had disgusted looks on their faces as they stared at Melody. I then heard Beau muttered “That was rude.”
I finally got the energy to walk to my room. All the guys were still behind me when we got to my room. I didn’t even bother changing my clothes as I crawled into my bed. I closed my eyes and tried to pretend this was all a bad dream and maybe if I open my eyes Dean would be standing with the boys. Then I felt someone lift the covers and crawl in next to me. I opened my eyes to see Luke there, he was staring at me and I couldn’t help but start crying again. He pulled me into him and I laid there crying for what felt like forever as I took everything in. Dean was gone, my best friend, he’s gone. I don’t remember when but I eventually fell asleep in Luke’s arms and I didn’t dream at all, it was just complete darkness.
