Touch Starved

Obliviate

"Darling let's go" Draco tugged on your waist. "Now" he snapped a little as you didn't listen. You looked to him, then walked away in his arms.

You were crying by the time you made it to the room, long sobbing noises left you.

"Look at me" Draco whispered, pulling your chin up for look at him. "You did what you had to do. Please stop crying" he cradled you in his arms, pulling you to the bed.

"I'm sorry I don't know why I'm crying" you spoke between sobs. The tears kept coming, your body shaking. Tried to level yourself, the world feeling like it was tunnel vision. He leaned down as you sat in his lap facing away from him, kissing your neck. If he couldn't make you stop crying with his words he wasn't sure what else to do. He bit at the skin, causing you to sigh deeply. He alternated between biting and kissing your skin, the gentle nibbles turned to one harder bite to your neck. You moaned, the sobbing sounds disappearing now with the lustful noises.

"Sorry I'm wasn't sure what else to do" he whispered against your skin.

"Please take me" you reached up, holding his hair.

"Baby. Let's talk about this." He whispered into your skin.

"I really don't want to talk. Please. Make everything else go away"

"Fine. But we're talking about this tomorrow"

-

You woke up before Draco, moving on to the bathroom to take a shower. You caught yourself in the mirror, your eyes were deep set black and blue and your lip was even cracked a little. You looked worse than when Pansy stabbed you. You ran your fingers over your skin, wishing you could make these bruises disappear.

You let the hot water roll over you, the steam seeping into every inch of you. You thought for a long time, about what Draco was asking of you. How he wanted you to take away his memories of his parents, you'd have to tell everyone not to mention it again. Your friends would do it with no issue. They would do whatever they had to to make you both happy and safe. You thought about all the times Draco spoke about his family in school, how proud he was of his name and now how at times he scorns it. Wearing it like a disease on his skin.

You wanted to make his name worth of him again, he had brought up a few times about just changing his name to yours. You assumed he was joking but sometimes the look on his face made you question if he was. You wondered what he would be like without these memories, the ones that gave him all the ideals he once carried and how he worked so hard to strip them away. But then the thought crossed your mind as you remember something you'd once heard, that he didn't even carrying a happy enough childhood memory to produce the Patronus charm. How can someone now have any good memories?

You dressed, waving your wand over your skin to try and cease some of the darkness. It worked a little, leaving only yellow and green to linger on the skin. No perfect but definitely better. You walked back into the room, where Draco lay sleeping still. His body exhausted from what it has been going through. It must be storming outside because the rushing of the water outside of the windows was harsh, and the water was dark and eerie.

You stood there for a long moment, holding your breath just so you could listen to his. How peacefully he slept now. His face scrunched a little as his breathing changed. A nightmare no doubt taking place there now, you took your wand. Taking a deep breath, these seconds felt like hours as you planned exactly his new story. His new life.

"Obliviate" you whispered. All the tension in his body released, allowing for him to fall deeply back into sleep. You had seen him sleep a million times, but this time was different somehow. He was rid of the dreams and thoughts that would consume him. He was free.

-

"So what does he think his life was like?" Ginny asked at dinner a few days later.

"He believes they were decent, but neglectful. Just never really around. I took away all the bad stuff and just made the loneliness he had back then not something coupled with fear. He wanted me to take them away entirely but I couldn't think of how to do that without having to explain to everyone never to bring them up again."

"How has he been since?" Hermione asked now, her hands on Ron's. Draco had ran off to the kitchen to refill drinks, so you took this time to fill them in completely.

"He's so... rested. It seems like he's been lying awake his whole life and now he finally just breaths without wondering if someone will scorn him for it"

"You did the right thing" Hermione nodded, she had to do something similar to save her parents once. Although her experience was so much harder than yours, you didn't lose anything here.

"What about the dark lord, will he remember that?" Harry asked.

"Yes, but he thinks he was recruited elsewhere. And that he's worked though that park of his life and is trying to be better" you nodded.

"Maybe now we can actually focus on your wedding?" Ginny smiled big, not even trying to hide her excitement. October was just a few short months away and you felt like you had nothing planned. You felt a little panicked in this moment, thinking about all the stuff that needed to be done.

"Don't start panicking on me now. Hermione and I are right here to help you" Ginny must have seen the look on your face.

"I just... we haven't even thought of a place" you sighed because you really hadn't.

"Have it at mums" Ron smiled. How had you not thought of that?

"Yes! Mom would love that so much!" Ginny nodded at her brother.

"Are you sure? I really wouldn't want to put so much on her" you thought about what happened at the last wedding they hosted.

"I don't be daft, y/n she'll be so excited" Harry finally spoke. You had to admit, having it there seemed like the absolute perfect place.

"Having wedding talk without me?" Draco came in the room holding a few glasses and a new bottle of fire whisky.

"Ginny suggested we have the wedding at Molly and Arthur's" you looked at him as he handed you your glass

"Are you sure? We really wouldn't want to put so much in her" he mimicked your nearly word for word. Your friends all smiled, shaking their heads. It was so funny to them how perfectly your minds worked with one another.

"Like we told your fiancé when she said that exact same thing. You know mom would be more than happy" Hermione laughed.

You and Draco looked at one another as he sat, just watching.

"Okay" you nodded. "I will write her this evening"

Dearest y/n,

ABSOLUTELY YOU CAN HAVE YOUR WEDDING HERE I WOULDN'T HAVE IT ANY OTHER WAY!

Love,

Mum

The howler she sent back screeched with joy, there was one less thing to worry about.

"I'm thinking I'll wear black" Draco nudged your shoulder, smiling as you flipped through a book.

"I sure hope so. I can't imagine you in anything else" you winked at him.

"Yeah I guess you're right" he laughed. "You know I can't wait to marry you right? Mrs. Y/N Malfoy has a pretty beautiful ring to it" he was hugging you now, his body tight to yours. He was just so happy, you loved every single second of it.

"It does doesn't it?" You bit your lip at him.

"You know what else does?" He spoke watching you bite. "The sound of you under me" you blushed at his words.

"Mr. Malfoy" you giggled

"Mrs. Malfoy?" He replied, his words like gold on your ears.

"I love you" you just smiled at him, lost in his eyes.

"Endless" he whispered, kissing you hard.