PREGNANT

CHAPTER FIFTEEN

The past few weeks as been stressing and tiring. I moved in with Theo, we had to do some last minute adjustments and shopping for the baby.

We also decided on a name for our baby boy, Avan Quincey Black.

My ankle and wrist got better but the wound from the surgery still hurts sometimes.

Everyone was shocked when we brought home Avan. Theo decided we would wait until we arrived home before we informed them and it was surprise never in a million years any of them would have thought of getting.

There were times when I too was still couldn't believe it. I was happy though that Theo was happy to have this baby. He has made it clear everyday by showing how much of an awesome father he is and I pray that everything works out for the best and that our baby was the reason we are rushing things.

Theo and I have had quite a rough path to begin with him leaving for quite a while and then the whole kidnapping. I think I'm way too straight headed after everything I went through but I have to be for my baby.

I wish my mother was here right now. I know she would be happy that I have a guy like Theo in my life and would be even happier to have her first grandchild. But not every wish is meant to come through.

My father was yet to be found and that scares me because I don't want him to come back and hurt me or my family.

"Baby I'm home. I've calling you but you weren't answering. Baby...."

Theo came infront of me and cupped my face in his hands and gently tilted my head so that I was looking up at him but my vision was a little blurry so I squeezed my eyes shut and them opened them.

"Baby what's wrong? You're crying. Does your tummy hurt? Your head maybe? Or does your feet hurt? Do you want me to rub them?"

He knelt down and started to rub my feet which hanged from the bed as I sat close to edge.

I shook my head as the tears came running down my face harder and I started to sob. He immediately got up and hugged me close to him and rocked me back and forth until my sobs calmed down.

"It's gonna be ok baby. I promise that anything that's bothering you I'm going to fix it if I can, ok? Please stop crying I hate to see you cry baby."

He kissed my forehead, my eyes, my cheeks, my nose and then my lips.

"Tell me what's wrong."

He wiped my face.

"I.... everything is just happening so fast. One moment I'm held hostage by my psycho stalker and the next I'm waking up to a baby and now we're living together and I don't even know if you want to spend the rest of your life tied to me . What if you are just here because of the baby and you will soon be tired of me maybe even both of us. I don't even know if you were ready to have a baby. And to top it all off what if my father comes back and try to hurt my baby or to hurt you. I can't have that happening. I can't have either of you being hurt. I just wouldn't live with myself knowing I'm the cause of it. I just..... I don't know what to do."

I started to cry again. I feel way too emotional right now and I can't help it.

Theo just sat staring at me without any emotion on his face I almost thought he didn't hear anything I just said or he just didn't care.

He let out a sigh sounding angry and then he stood up and walked towards the bathroom door but then he stopped. Theo was about to say something when we heard the baby crying in his room next to ours.

"I'll go get him."

He said not bothering to go to the bathroom.

"You aren't going to say anything about what I just said?"

"Baby we'll talk about this just now the is crying I have to check on him."

The way he spoke made me think that he was angry maybe even irritated.

After he left the room I laid down and stared at the ceiling and thought about all I just said. Maybe I shouldn't be jumping to conclusions about how he felt about all of this but I'm feeling so many different emotions I just said the things that came to my mind.

I got up and went to the bathroom and locked the door behind me and striped off my clothes and looked at myself in the mirror.

I feel so ashamed of myself standing here trying to find more reasons as to why Theo is going to or should leave me.

Filling up the bathtub I got in and laid back before I slowly slide under until my whole body was under the water.

I could hold my breath under water for quite a while and that was exactly what I did.

That was until I felt someone frantically trying to pull me up from under the water.