"So are you and T dating?" crystal asked me as we started shopping. He gave me all this cash with a blue thing on it. I don't know what that means but when I pulled it out people gasped so it must be valuable. I
"No, I don't like labels. And he probably likes someone else"
"Maybe. He still hung up on his ex-baby mama. Y'all fucked yet?"
"What? No"I laughed
"Hmm, that's not a good sign. When we used to date he fucked me the first night"
"Oh y'all used to date," I said not even realizing my eyes get big
"Yeah but I'm lesbian now so don't worry" she smiled. But I was overthinking. Why did he bring me here if he doesn't like me? Does he have a kid? I wonder if it's a boy to girl. Probably a boy. Lots of people having boys these days. What if he gonna use me. What if he is using me right now.
"I wanna go home now, "I said to one of the security guards who were guarding us
"Oh you can leave I'm meeting somebody here anyways" crystal nodded as they escorted me to the Uber.
"Where to?"
"Home" I sighed.
We reached home and nobody was there. So I grabbed a coke from his refrigerator and drunk it.
"Woah" I laughed grabbing 3 others. Putting them into his blender with sprite and cranberry juice and taking a loaded tone of ice and adding it.
It was loud. Really fucking loud. Pouring it into this big cup it all fit. I started getting hungry so I looked through his refrigerator grabbing food he bought for me a while ago I just never ate.
Steak and potatoes
Chipotle
Five guys.
"What are five guys," I said opening the bag and it was a burger.
"That's cool" I shrugged grabbing everything and putting it in the oven at 400 degrees.
I grabbed the pan dropping it cause it was burning hot. Which I didn't realize at first. Now my hands gonna blister. Damn.
I grabbed the food and my drink going up the stairs. Turning on the tv to Netflix than watching all the shows I had memorized from the books I read in the institution.
This house is kind of weird. It took me so long to find the oven and when it does turn on it hums and talks. And his refrigerator is clear. And has lights and tells you what food is in there. How does it even know? Does it scan everything and just see what you do and don't have or is it something else I wonder about?
Polo
"Your girlfriend is mad"crystal said on the phone
"What did you say"
"Nothing I just told her about some things" she mumbled before I hung up on her. She fucking irritates me sometimes. Not her place to do shit but she does it anyway.
Driving up the house I could hear the fucking tv blasting and the kitchen was a mess.
I'm not ready for this phase yet. I mean I'm prepared for it. I read up on it I gotta but these fucking needles for her hormones and the lady said I had to lock her up by herself for a few hours for her to calm down and not hurt herself or anybody around her.
"Fee, "I said walking up the stairs but she ain't hear me so it's no point.
"Fee" I trailed off seeing her passed out. Food everywhere. Drinks everywhere.
Should I wake her up?
"I don't wanna be here anymore. I don't like it here," she mumbled sitting up.
"Chill out for real."
"No. Take me home"
"I ain't even do shit"
"How come you never fucked me. You did to crystal when y'all first met and your child's mother.-"
"Cause you're different obviously. I don't even like my baby mom and crystal wasn't even that good. Also they whores and you not"
Fiona
"Fuck you" I yelled back at him putting the cover over me.
He sighed heavily then picked me up.
"Put me down," I said trying to slip out
"I will stab you" I lied so he could put me down but he didn't.
It was this dark room with a big bed and black carpet. No windows.
"No no no please," I said raising my voice climbing over him.
"I have to. You're gonna hurt yourself I have to protect you" he said putting me down locking the door.
I sat on the floor next to the bed crying but he didn't do anything about it and just stared at me.
"You're not even ugly."
"Ok"
"Why did you cut your hair"
"I didn't."
"Also it's been at least a month how is your hair still straight"
"It's damaged" I replied nonchalantly
"You can cut it and regrow it"
"Really, "I said hoping up from off the ground
"Yeah once you calm down which is in 3 days this will be over.
"I'm hungry"
"Yeah speaking on that. Why did you drink like 4 fucking pops"
"They taste so good I never had them before"
"Hmm. Ion like it when you yell and ignore me either. That pissed me off"
"I'm sorry"
"Also I do have a kid but she doesn't let me see him. I should've told you that but I didn't"
"Is it a boy"
"Yeah it's a boy"
"That's cute"
"Go to sleep now"
