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we arent enemies | junhao

a shortie but a goodie

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i don't know how it happened.

we aren't even in the same grade- and we don't share any classes. the only time i see you, other than the hallways and lunch, are during dance practices. we didn't even talk during those. even though we're both awfully close to soonyoung and chan.

for some reason- at some point- you started hating me. it was a lot of cold glares, a lot a rude glances, a lot of scoffing, even more eye rolling. i don't mean to sound arrogant, but is it because you're jealous? i dont see why else. but i also don't see why you could- or would- ever be jealous of me, so it's just another thought.

it took far too long for us to speak, though.

either way, you, somehow, encourage me to do better at everything and improve myself as a person. thank you for that. i've forced myself to work harder in school, just to see if i could manage to get a better score than you. we aren't even in the same grade- but i know we both check. and i've practiced dancing so much more than before because how am i supposed to compete with a previous b-boy?

but despite our constant competitions, we aren't enemies.

i don't think i would consider us enemies in the slightest. we argue, sure. we compete, also yes. and my lord, our eye rolls are like no other. everyone would consider us enemies. but we aren't enemies.

enemies don't think about each other like this. they don't daydream about each other's lips, and how soft them must be. they don't think that they're going to kiss every single time someone says 'make me' in response to 'shut up'. and they definitely don't imagine another universe- one where they're not enemies. a world where they're at least friends, if not something more.

my god, xu minghao, you drive me crazy. but what can i say? you know that i love crazy, and it's what keeps me here with you. maybe this is one sided, but i don't really care at this point.

maybe you'd say that we're enemies. that you hate me. that you'd rather die than even think about being friends with me. but we aren't enemies. we aren't. and i don't want us to be.

i just want to fall deeper and deeper and deeper for you. i want to imagine these weird scenarios. i want to think about how soft your lips are. i want to kiss you. i want to love you.

and xu minghao, you're making it really easy.