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☆Alex Oneshot☆
dear diary
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• y/n •

i was home with my older sister and my parents. it had been two days since i had came out to my family and of course they couldn't accept this but they are willing to at least try which was fine by me.

but, it just seemed like everyone has changed since then. my sister isn't the same either. it seems as if she doesn't want to be around me anymore. i was going to talk to her today to see what was wrong.

i made my way up the stairs and walked towards her room, my anxiety starting to build up, my heart rate quickening as i got closer and closer to her door. i just- i just feel like she hates me now.

"hey, ashlyn?"i asked, knocking on her door.

"yes y/n?"she replied and i walked in.

"can i talk to you?"i asked.

"sure what's up?"she asked.

"d-do you hate me?"i asked.

"about what happened? y/n y/l/n! i could never in a million ever hate you!"she exclaimed and i slightly jumped. her expression softened once she noticed.

"but i mean i wasn't sure you just seemed, different since i came out,"i explained and she nodded.

"i know and i'm really sorry, i was trying to navigate and understand all of this just as much as mom and dad probably want to,"she explained and i nodded understanding.

"that makes sense,"i said.

"you know, i actually have something i want to you give you,"she said and turned around to give me a diary?

"a diary? why are you giving me this?"i asked.

"because i do know about your anxiety and i figured you'd like to write down your feelings instead of keeping everything bottled up,"she explained and i nodded, smiling.

"thank you, i really appreciate this,"i said and she smiled, i pulled her into a hug and soon enough pulled away.

i stood up to walk out and my sister said one more thing before i walked out.

"hey y/n?"she asked.

"yes?"i asked.

"you know if any guy breaks your heart i'm going to the them up and throw them in a lake right?,"she asked and i laughed but soon realized she was serious.

"um, yes,"i said and she laughed.

"goodnight baby brother,"she said and i walked out smiling.

i had made my way to my room and looked around. my bed was pretty messy and some of my clothes were all over the place but i didn't worry too much about it.

i walked over to my desk and started to write.

hello, diary, i know this is pretty weird writing things down on paper but it's nice to meet you, god i'm so weird. anyway, i wanted to talk about what happened two days ago and it had been eating me up ever since.

i had officially came out to my parents and they weren't really supportive. the only one that has given me hope is ashlyn. it has not been easy, especially along with my anxiety.

i also just hope that i am able to find someone that can love me for who i am even though i'm pretty pathetic. i also hope that my parents can accept me for who i am. that felt really good to get that off my chest. well this is it, see you soon diary.

- y/n.

i had placed the pencil down. that felt really good to do. i felt much better. i had looked at the time and i decided it was time to head to bed. once i got into bed i heard a random knock on my window. i jolted faster than you can say "arriba!"

"jesus christ!"i said and i let the boy in.

"hey, i'm alex, i'm sorry about this intrusion but i wanted to ask if i could spend the night here?"he asked and i blushed, realizing that he was extremely cute.

"um, sure? but why didn't you just ask someone else in the neighborhood or knock on the door?"i asked.

"i'd rather not talk about it,"he replied and i nodded.

"oh what's this?"he asked holding my diary, realizing that it was open.

"i, uh...,"i stammered and he smirked.

"wait, you're gay too?"he asked.

"y-yes,"i stammered again and he walked over to me.

"i have a random question if you don't mind,"he said.

"yeah?"i asked.

"have you ever... had your first kiss yet?"he asked and i blushed even more.

"um, no,"i said looking down.

"that's a shame,"he said, lifting my head up and smashing his lips onto mine and then my door bursted open.

"y/n! is everything- intruder!"ashlyn said and ran to her room, within a few seconds she came back and threw  bouncy balls at alex.

"ash! quit it, he's my friend!"i said and she stopped.

"oh my god, i am so sorry!"she exclaimed and ran out.

"i am so sorry about her,"i said and he laughed.

"it's cool,"he said and i shook my head. what was ashlyn thinking? but aside from that i really hope this relationship grows between us.

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hope you enjoyed!
this was an alex x male reader oneshot!
requests are still open!
happy new year everyone!

word count: 910!