I Love Anxiety - Tamaki Amajiki x Reader

Chapter 6 - Best Day of My Life

Y/N's POV

The thing about Jiji is that he acts very differently around me. Not in a weird way. He just acts more confident... So I thought if I tried to hold his hand like a lover would do... He would react confidently.

I was totally wrong...

He ended up dropping a spoonful of batter on the ground which splattered everywhere. I couldn't help but laugh, though. It was hilarious and adorable. We cleaned it up and now we're letting the cupcakes cool and making a milkshake. It's turning out quite... Professional. If you subtract the mess from the equation.

Jiji looks at it and looks at me. "More milk?"

I inspect the milkshake and nod. "Yeah. More milk. Put in butter just kidding don't do that."

Jiji chuckles and pours in more milk. The white liquid flows down and mixes with the other ingredients of our professional milkshake. I, then, put another scoopful of ice cream in the blender... And another... Maybe one more. As I put the last scoop in my tics make me drop the scooper in and scream "Cold!" And vibrate my lips.

Jiji laughs and takes the scooper out. "Sorry, Jiji." I say. "I didn't mean to."

"It's fine, no need to apologize. I'll just rinse it off." The purple haired boy goes to the sink and I look at the milkshake. It's been a while since I've done this with him. We used to make milkshakes all the time in Junior High.

Jiji comes back over and smiles at me. "Whatcha thinkin about?" I back away a bit so he can continue to make the milkshake.

"Nothin much. Just that you've always been really good at makin stuff ever since I met you. Remember when you'd always bring snacks and share em with me. I never even asked either. You'd come up to me with half a cookie and hand it to me. Even when I went outside to eat my non-existent lunch. You'd just come and find me. Mirio would follow you and we'd end up hanging out until lunch was done. I still remember it to this day."

I can tell he's blushing. He always gets embarrassed when it comes to our childhood. "Yeah I- I remember it too." Then he puts the lid on the blender and clicks the button to blend it. The ingredients mix together, creating a creamy drink. Jiji stops blending and takes off the lid.

"Those memories are very important to me, y'know. Every memory with you and Mirio helped me make it through the times when I had seizures and stuff. And that abused stage of life. You and Mirio helped me keep going. Especially you. That's why I love you, Jiji." When that word escaped my lips, Jiji jumps and clutches his shirt and the handle of the blender.

I yelp and smack my forehead. Jiji ignores the tic and begins to speak. "I remember. I remember everything but... I don't understand why you had to go through all those things. Everyone else, including me, had perfect, normal lives and those kids bullied you because you were different. They bullied and tortured you because you didn't have a normal life. That made me... Pity you. That made me-"

"Jiji... You do know you didn't only feel pity for me, right? I could tell because a person who only felt pity wouldn't have ran at an adult that obviously waa violent and didn't care if they hit a child. You felt something more than pity." I get two cups for us and some straws. "You weren't so normal either. You had some... Troubles socializing. Remember? Even now, you can't bear getting embarrassed. It's adorable but the other kids made fun of you about that. I know because I heard them." He jumps a bit when I say that and I make my way back to him. "Anyways, we don't need to worry about that, okay? We're still best friends and we're almost outta school. Someday... Y'know... We might be more than friends even. It's all up to what you're ready to do."

I take his hand from the blender and pour the milkshake into the cups. I also go get the whipped cream. "I-..."

"Hm?" I look up from the fridge and at Jiji.

"I wanna be..." He mumbles something.

I take the whipped cream and stand next to him. "What was that?"

"C-can you be... Mine?" A weird feeling goes through me and my heart aches. I smile and hug the boy.

"I will gladly be yours." I whisper. Jiji begins to tear up and he hugs my waist. He hugs me as if he never wants to let go. A lump forms in my throat and I laugh. "C'mon. Let's drink these."

I pull away from him a bit, but he still holds my waist and leans his head on my shoulder. He watches as I spray some whipped cream on our milkshakes. Then I spray some in my mouth and offer some to him. I laugh when he opens his mouth and give him some too. Then I put a bit on his nose and he tries licking it off. I chuckle as he wipes it off with his finger and puts it in his mouth when he fails.

Then we take our drinks to the table so we can frost cupcakes as we enjoy them. We talk all the while and eat the cupcakes I either throw or smash in my mouth. I laugh a lot during that time and I feel very happy. I end up sitting on his lap and we finish frosting the cupcakes in that position. I look at him with a smile and he looks happy too. Either he thinks he's in a dream or he somehow bought a cup of confidence at the gorcery store, but without warning, his lips make contact with mine.

I pause before sinking into it. I've never kissed anyone like this before... Actually I've never kissed anyone at all. I never expected to kiss Jiji at a time like this. I confess that I've daydreamed about it, but I never expected it to happen. He's never seemed the type to just kiss a girl.

Our moment is interrupted, though, when there's a ring at the doorbell. I pull away with a big blush and instantly rush to the hall. "I'll get it." I call. I take a breath to calm down before I reach the door. I force the blush away and open the door.

"Hey, Ta- Y/N?" Mirio says. He has a smile on his face but looks surprised to see me. He's carrying a bag.

"Hey, Mirio. What's up? Are you the one selling cocaine? shit.... Sorry... Come in." I stand back so he can walk in.

He laughs. "Thank you. And I could ask you the same thing. Not... If your selling drugs but... What're yo-"

"Mirio?" Jiji walks down the hall to where we stand. "What're you doing here?"

"Hey, Tamaki." He chuckles. "I came by because I thought you could use some advice on... Um..." He glances at me and I raise an eyebrow.

I laugh. "Ah. I should go then. I'll see you tomorrow, Jiji." I wave. He begins to protest but I turn away. "Hey, Mirio? How about you try coming earlier in the day time instead of coming... When the sun is already down."

He chuckles in reply. "Sorry. I was busy earlier. But, do you and Tamaki have plans tomorrow?"

I nod. "Anyways, I should go now. Have fun, you two." And with that, I leave. I also didn't bring shoes over so I go out bare foot.

"Bye, Y/N!" I hear Jiji call. I turn back with a bright smile and wave.

"Bye, Jiji! Bye, Mirio." And continue walking along the cold cement when the door closes. I don't live too far away, just about two blocks. I look up at the stars as I walk. There's no moon, making the world dark. I watch as the stars twinkle and I smile. This is, by far, the best day of my life.