I Love Anxiety - Tamaki Amajiki x Reader

Akane's Backstory

Akane's POV

I was looking out the window, watching as the trees zoomed past the window and the evening sky darkening more and more. I was listening to music with my earbuds as I felt my eyes grow heavy. It was a peaceful drive, we were heading to the airport to go to America for vacation.

All I remember from the accident was the sharp corner that had a blind side and a car coming at full speed from around it. It was being careless and crashed right into us. Our car flew into the air, glass flying everywhere and my body confused and in shock by the impact.

I heard my little sisters screaming and my parents were trying to brace themselves. Our car smashed on the ground again but began rolling down the hill. I just felt pain, bones crunching and glass lodging into my skin. My sisters were no longer heard and my parents were limp. I blacked out after that, waking up when I feel my body being tugged.

I opened my eyes slightly to see lights and police dragging me from the car. I look over to see bodies covered up with a tarp and grief enters my chest and I suddenly feel helpless.

Am I... Dying? I thought.

Once the officers have me completely out, they set me on the ground and begin inspecting me.

"He's still alive!" The man calls and looms over me. "Hey! Can you hear me?"

I try focusing on him before I begin speaking. My throat is dry and raspy, but I manage to make a word. "Others..."

He looks at me before nodding. "We'll talk about that later. You've lost a lot of blood. We need-"

I grab his arm. "I'm... Done... Is there... Anyone... Left?"

The man looks into my eyes before slowly nodding. "The child. He's alive."

That puts a spark of hope in my heart. I smile, looking up at the dark sky, stars twinkling. "Good... Help him... Live..."

After that, I feel my consciousness slipping away. The officer yells at me but I'm already dying.

I wish... I coulda stuck around to watch my brother grow up... I thought. An that was the final thing going through my head before my life slips away.

"You still can." Something whispers in my ear.

My eyes shoot open and I'm met with a white world. I sit up, looking around. I feel no pain and no sadness... Just... Peace.

My eyes meet a tall man wearing a black long coat and a black shirt with a vest. He's also wearing sturdy gloves and boots with black trousers. His face is hidden by a mask.

I frown, confused. "Who're you?"

He puts his hands behind his head. "I'm a helper. I was forced to do this. And it also looks like you're not ready to leave yet. I watched that crash. That was rough."

I scoff, standing up. "What am I doing here?"

The man chuckles. "The Void is a place of decisions and meetings. But I'm just here to let you know you're fate."

He pauses as I await an answer. "And that is?"

The man begins pacing. "There's three fates of a spirit. They can go to the afterlife and be reborn. They can become a spirit guider watch over someone they had a close connection with. Or they can go back to Earth and help other spirit who never made it here find their way."

I glare at him. "What am I doing, then?"

He laughs. "You're gonna help me get more spirits to the afterlife. But while you're down there, you can still watch your brother grow up... Just like you wanted. That sounds good, right?" He leans his face closer to mine.

I sigh. "I feel like you're tricking me."

He laughs again. "Do you? Sorry, I guess it's just natural for me now. You see, I was a criminal when I was alive. So they're making me do this for a while before I can move on." The man begins walking away.

I try following but my feet are stuck. "Hey. Wait, what're you doing?"

"I'm nor doing anything!" He calls back. "You're just going back to Earth!"

I hear his chuckles before blackness floods my vision.

***

After that, I just began doing my job. I helped spirits find their way to the void before leaving them for the man to take care of. I did it around the clock every day until I finally was able to find Shoya.

That was also the same day I found Y/N.

It was also the same day they had met each other. I listened to their conversation and immediately became attached to them both. Ever since then, I watched them all the time. They played together and met new people together. It was so adorable.

It wasn't until a months after I found him that I finally worked up the courage to talk to him. His quirk had already developed and I was really nervous.

He didn't believe me at first. But later on, he found some pictures online after digging and confirmed it. I helped him and we got to know each other.

I mostly focused on Shoya but also observed Y/N. She was an interesting girl and had a hard time controlling her tics. Whenever her tics caused her to hurt herself, she'd hide it from the others. But I noticed her injuries since she wasn't able to see me.

I did my best to take care of them both. Her foster parents would be careless about her meds so I took the liberty of copying the woman's handwriting and always made it seem like she left notes of reminders.

It wasn't until I first 'met' Tamaki that I sorta became possessive of her and jealous.

She absolutely adored the boy. She always was gone because she was having a sleepover. I told Shoya I was going to meet with some spirits but actually went to spy on her.

I got jealous when I saw them laughing and playing. I always wished I'd be able to do that with her. I did the selfish thing to do and I actually caused the poor little boy to fall down the stairs. He broke his wrist and the mother and the two kids went to the hospital.

Even then, Y/N went with him as comfort. She wiped away his tears of pain and even let him lean on her. After they were done at the hospital, they got some popsicles and went back home only to fall asleep together. I realized that it's not the best to punish Tamaki just for being friends with Y/N.

The boy was kind and very caring with the girl. Gentle and soft with her. She liked him.

But still, I couldn't get rid of jealousy. I just felt that she only needed me to take care of her and no one else.

But deep down I knew that a ghost can't be a parent.

It can only be a watcher.

[Yes, I know. This was short. I'm sorry.

But, I hope you enjoyed getting to know Akane a bit more.

Poor Tamaki ToT

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