I Love Anxiety - Tamaki Amajiki x Reader

Chapter 17 - I Couldn't Protect Him

~trigger warning~

Tamaki's POV

"SHUTUP TAMAKI AMAJIKI I'LL TEAR YOUR THOAT OUT-" Her face is wet with tears. She screams at herself after the tic, grabbing her hair. "I'M SICK OF THIS. YOU DON'T KNOW ANYTHING!!! DON'T TOUCH ME!!!" She smacks my hand away when I try to take the shard of glass from her. I flinch away. That movement gives me a chance to fully see the burn covering half of her face. Her eye is a gray and is now useless. Her face is still healing and looks a bit painful.

"Y/N, put the glass down plea-"

"I SAID SHUT THE HELL UP!!!" When she clenches her fist around the glass, her wounds leak more blood. Fresh, new cuts run over the ones that are trying to heal. She's been doing this ever since that night.

"Y/N, I'm trying to he-"

"STOP IT!!! YOU CAN'T HELP ME! I DON'T NEED YOU! SHUTUP AND LEAVE! GET OUT OF MY ROOM!!!" The glass clatters on the ground and she goes to the sink, turning on the cold water to wash her cuts. She doesn't look at me. I study her knotted hair, not brushed or cared for, for about a week or so. The bags under her eyes from sleepless nights and constant tears. The way her face looks a bit gray from lack of food. And lastly, the way her open wounds release red liquid that is instantly washed away from the pouring water.

I take another step. "Y/N. Let me help."

"Stay away I said fuck off, retard. Go die in a hole- shit." She sniffs, her running nose a result of crying.

"You're bleeding."

"I'm fine." Her voice is cold. "Get out of here, or I'll make you. I'm stronger than you, even without my useless quirk."

It tears me apart to see her like this. Every instinct tells me to hug her and tell her everything will be okay. She doesn't have to worry and I'll take care of her. To just hold her until her tears stop.

I pick up the glass on the ground and set it on the counter, still looking at Y/N. "Y/N, please. You know how much this hurts me-"

The glare she gives me sends a pulse through my body. "Leave."

I step toward her. "You need to bind it-"

"I said leave, Amajiki."

"Let m-"

"LEAVE GODDAMN IT!!!" She swings her fist toward me and I make no move to avoid it. Her hand stops and she just looks at me, her gaze turning vulnerable again. "Leave. Please." Tears begin running down her face. I take the chance to get closer. Her head droops and she leans against my chest. "Leave me. I don't need you."

Blood drips from her fingertips and onto the floor. "Let me bandage it. Then I'll leave." I insist gently.

She's been like this ever since that night. She lost someone.

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The night we left off at

I wrap my tentacles around a Nomu as an attempt to restrain it, but it just catches them and tears them off. I take in a sharp breath before just knocking it aside. I run towards the alley where we were forced to flee and where Y/N is supposed to be. When I look into it, she's fighting them. All without a quirk.

I see her knock away a knife from the girl's hand with a kick and then knock Dabi to the floor with a couple moves I've seen her practice on her own. I intercept with the villian girl as she pulls out a knife and lunges towards Y/N. I grab her with a tentacle and toss her to a wall. Y/N looks at me with a smirk and then knocks both out. She runs up to me. "Sorry. I couldn't fight with you two around."