Wanting what you can't have..

F o r t y - T h r e e - we are trusting you

Josephine

After a few minutes of Hero convincing me to go talk and to them we are now walking back to my house in complete silence. I have no idea what my mom wants I just hope she's not ready for round two I'm so tired and really don't have it in me to carry this shit on. Before I get the chance to open the front door Hero stops me turning me around to face him.

"Hey I know I was a dick last night I was just shocked and if I'm being perfectly honest the thought of being away from you for that long makes my head spin. I love you so fucking much Jo even now with you living minutes away I can't go more than a day without being around you but whatever happens you need to know we will be okay it's only three months we've waited longer than that before aint we." He says caressing my cheek.

"I don't want to go my life is here I can't just go off for three months... you say we will be okay but you don't know that I will go crazy without you I know I will. What if-what if someone else comes along and-" I don't even get to finish what I'm saying before he's cutting me off by pressing his lips against mine.

"Don't you dare think about finishing that sentence.... I love you and no amount of distance will change that, your mine Jo always have been and always will be there's no getting rid of me now babe." He smiles. "Now let's head in and see what they have to say yeah?" god I love him maybe I can hide my passport so they have no choice but to let me stay behind.

As soon as we walk inside we head to the kitchen and join my parents who are sat at the table drinking coffee. "Have you calmed down a bit now?" my mom asks, I know I should apologise for the way I was earlier but I'm still pissed off at them for doing this to me so that isn't going to happen.

"Look can you guys please put yourselves in my shoes... I'm happy here really happy I have my best friend and boyfriend here I don't want to just up and leave for three months it may not seem long to you guys but it is for me. What hurts more is feeling like you went behind my back planning this... not once have you mentioned going back and now all of a sudden it's "Oh we are going back to Perth for three months" I was so shocked when you agreed to let me go to Paris with Hero for my birthday but then come home and find out not only have you planned this three month trip but also went to my school and arranged school work for me to do you just completely sprung this on me with no warning..." I say wiping my face with my sleeve.

"We are sorry that you feel that way honey that wasn't our intention at all to make you feel like went behind your back we've spoke about it a lot over the past year and right now is perfect timing for both of us." My dad says grabbing my mom's hand.

"It may be perfect timing for you guys but not for me my whole life is here I don't want to leave Hero or Mercy I want to be here for her I can't just abandon her when she needs me more than ever... I understand you need a break you both work so hard and I'm so proud of you, you guys deserve it more than anyone but I don't understand why I have to go too. Please I'm begging you just let me stay you can even leave cameras around the house or a tracker on my leg whatever it takes just please don't make me go." Great now I'm crying.

Hero

"We didn't realise how unhappy you would be when we planned this and I will be honest Mercy's situation did influence our decision about you coming with us which I hate admitting but after listening to what Hero had to say I don't think you two will be so careless to make the same mistake. We can see how much you two care about each other and how hurt you will both be if we rip you apart for three months so we have agreed that you can stay home but there will be rules set in-" before Liz can even finish what she's saying Jo has jumped across the table wrapping her arms around her.