Wanting what you can't have..

S e v e n - Don't push me

Hero

Three weeks it's been since the weekend that completely fucked with my head and in that space of time Jo has completely kept her distance she is usually always around our house but the past three weeks she's stayed away with Mercy mostly going there or they go out. At first I thought that's what I wanted for her to keep her distance to make it easier on us but not seeing her is fucking with my head just as much and makes me want her all the more especially when I get small glimpses of her. I keep wondering if her head is just as fucked as mine and if she's thinking about me as much as I think about her, whether she misses me and has to stop herself from texting me like I do.

Fuck what has she done to me.

I've been getting pissed with the boys most weekends to distract myself tonight being no different, just another Friday night drinking at Morgz house.

"Yo did any of you just get the text about the party at Kaths?" Jack shouts over the music.

"No bro but I'm game it's getting shit just sitting in here all the time," Morgz shouts grabbing his jacket. I won't lie I do want to see Jo but I know that when I do it will just set me back so I honestly cant be assed and seeing Felix' face he's probably thinking the same. He hasn't even mentioned that night Mercy kissed him and they have avoided each other like the bloody plague.

Half an hour later we are knocking on the door and it's Mercy who answers the door.

"Herooo didn't know you lot were coming." she slurs, pissed again, great.

Deciding I'm sick of playing the parent I leave her be and head straight to the kitchen with Felix to grab a drink it's not as busy as Kaths parties usually get which is good I suppose. I'm stood in the kitchen with the boys downing shots as Jo walks past us all wearing a plain black short dress that hugs her curves perfectly and an oversized checked shirt over it, she looks fucking amazing and every other fucker notices too.

"Fuck me bro Jo looks fucking fine," Morgz whispers punching Jacks arm.

"Fuck when did she start looking like that," Jack says eyeing her up.

Fucking pair of dickheads.

I can already see how this night is going to be and I am not in the mood for it at all, I take a few more shots then grab a rum and coke sitting on the counter.

"You good man?" Felix whispers to me as he stands next to me staring over at Jo, Mercy and the rest of their mates.

"Yeah bro am good," I lie taking a swig from my drink.

As me and Felix are talking two of Kaths friends come over trying to flirt I don't catch their names I'm to busy watching Jo sitting with Jack and her friends laughing at whatever shit he's chatting. I hate all of this I'm sat feeling pissed off seeing them next to each other as she's giggling at him I've never been the jealous type before, I grip the edges of the counter top trying not to loose my shit.

"bro you need to go calm down," Felix says noticing how pissed off I'm getting so I jump down without saying anything and storm off to the bathroom. I can't take this shit I knew I shouldn't of fucking came here tonight just as I grab my phone out my pocket to check the time the door swings open.

"I'm fucking in here." I shout before noticing it's Jo of bloody course it would be.

"Knock yourself out I'm done anyway." I say trying to get past her but she blocks the door.

"Piss off Jo I'm not in the mood," I snap.

"What's up want to hurry back to the skank your flirting with?" she smirks.