Wanting what you can't have..

E l e v e n - Your being a bit of a hypocrit

Hero

I can't believe Jo came to the decision to tell Mercy about us she was so scared and seeing her face after Mercy told her she needed time absolutely broke me. I decided to leave Mercy be for last night but now she's had time to let it sink in I need to talk to her. I knock on her door before walking in.

"Why knock if you were going to walk in regardless?" she asks clearly still pissed off.

"Can we talk please?" I ask.

"What about you wanting to fuck my Best Friend?" she asks bitterness clear in her voice. I sit down on her bed ignoring her dig.

"Mercy it's not like that you know full well I've liked Jo for ages... I've never felt this way before."

"Yeah you like her now then you'll have your way with her and loose interest like you always do," she scoffs.

"It won't be like that at all, she's different," I argue.

"Yeah she's different because she's my best fucking friend that's why!" she shouts at me.

"Mercy do you think I wanted to fall for your fucking Best Friend? I tried my best to stop it but I couldn't I know this is a shit situation but you have to know I really do like her and I want to be with her," I say playing with my fingers.

"And what the hell happens when you break her heart? When she can't stand to come around anymore or when she has no time for me because she wants to spend every minute with you!" she snaps.

"Okay first of all I won't break her heart you've got no fucking idea how long I've wanted her and secondly your being a bit childish you know full well she will never pull away from you like that you're her best friend and can I just say your being a bit of a hypocrite here..." I say to her.

"How the fuck am I a hypocrite?" she snaps.

"Well last night I walked in on you straddling MY Best Friend and have I once kicked off? No I told him that if he likes you then I won't be a problem for you both as long as he's certain about it because I won't have him break your heart," I tell her which leaves her speechless.

"Mercy none of this was to hurt you we both tried so hard to fight it you have no idea how bad she's felt over it all your each other's world and I get this is kind of hard for you but you can't sit there and be mad forever she was honest with you and your in the exact same position that she is in."

She sits there quiet for a few minutes...

"Can you please go and see her? She really needs you right now," I say, she looks up at me with watery eyes.

"You really care about her don't you?" she says.

"More than you can imagine it scares the shit out of me if I'm honest," I say and she huffs standing up going to her closet.

"Give me five minutes to get ready and we will go over but Hero if you break her heart I swear to fucking god I will cut your balls off and feed them to Diesel got it?" she says and I know she's being serious she'd kill anyone who hurt her best friend.

"Got it," I say laughing leaving the room. I text Jo to let her know I'm on my way to see her but I don't mention Mercy hoping to surprise her,

*Jo💖 -
Hope you got some sleep babe? Be round soon ❤️xxx*

By time I've grabbed my hoody and put my trainers on Mercy is ready to leave. As soon as we start walking and pass Felix' house I notice her looking up at his window.

"So since when were you did you start fancying him?" I ask genuinely curious, I'm surprised it didn't piss me off to be honest I guess my feelings for Jo made me realise you can't help who fall for.

"For as long as I can remember," she sighs

"Want to talk about it?" I ask her and she just shakes her head letting me know she doesn't we spend the rest of the walk in silence until we get to Jo's. Kat answers the door and glares at me.

"Are you the reason she's been up crying all night asshole?" she snaps at me.

"Nope that would be me," Mercy cuts in.

"Make me a cuppa and ill tell you," she says nodding at me letting me know to head up first I knock lightly on her door.

"Come in," she says her voice hoarse I'm guessing from crying all night.

"Hey beautiful" I say walking over and sitting next to her on the bed bringing her to my chest kissing the top of her head.

"Hey," she says wrapping her arms around me.

"You haven't slept, have you?" I ask her.

"I tried I just couldn't get her face out of my head I can't believe I betrayed her we betrayed her I've fucked our friendship up," she says crying into my chest before I can say anything Mercy pops her head round the door.

"Stop them tears right now you haven't ruined this friendship I was just shocked," she says walking into the room. Jo dives up and runs to Mercy hugging her.

"I'm so sorry," Mercy moves Jo's hair out of her face.

"Don't be you can't help falling for someone like the asshole pointed out I'm in the same boat," she says laughing.

"I'm going to leave you two to it, text me later?" I say grabbing her face and kissing her forehead.

"Ewww don't think you can do that in front of me I am nowhere near comfortable seeing that shit." Mercy says pushing me away from Jo, I ruffle her hair and walk out.

***

I make my way back home but decide to knock on at Felix' first the dickhead has been ignoring my messages which proves something is up because he's usually at our house before I wake up stuffing his face. His mum tells me he won't get his ass out of bed so I head up to his room.

"Oi dickhead get the hell up," I shout pulling the covers off him.

"Fuck off man," he says pulling the pillow over his head.

"Don't tell me this is all over my little sister?" I say he huffs and sits up against the headboard I knew that would work.

"My heads fucked bro," he says running his hands over his face.

"I know it's awkward because it's my sister but you know you can talk to me man were best fucking friends," I say.

"That's the point init? Were best friends Hero we have been since we were in fucking nappies I've grown up thinking of Mercy as a little sister then she goes and fucking kisses me and messes everything up," he sighs.

"It takes two to kiss man this isn't just her fault," I say slightly annoyed defending my sister.

"Don't you think I know that? I'm saying she's messed everything up because since she kissed me and I can't get her out of my fucking head she's all I can think about, fuckkkkkkkkk," he screams into his hands.

It's so weird seeing Felix this conflicted he's always been the one to not give a shit I guess I kind of understand all four of us have literally grew up together and now the whole dynamics have changed and feelings have come into play.

"FIFA?" I say hoping it will distract him a bit he doesn't say anything so I throw the pad at him and set it up.

"Look bro you know your my guy so whatever you do I got your back," I say wholeheartedly.

"What if it fucks everything up?" he asks.

"What if it doesn't?" if this was before Jo I would be the first to tell him not to bother but now I know more than anyone it's worth the risk if it's something you want, he doesn't bother replying he just focuses on the game after two games he pauses it.

"I need to speak to her don't I?" he asks.

"Yeah it's something you both need to have a proper talk about and decide what you want to do," I say before I decide to head back home and leave him to sort his shit.

*Okay short chapter sorry!! so I was thinking of shaking it up a bit and giving Felix his own chapter? Maybe Mercy too? What would you all think of that? Or just keep it how it is... Anyway vote, comment and let me know what you think of this chapter and about my idea... 🙏💖*