Wanting what you can't have..

N i n e - I cant pretend anymore

Hero

My head is a complete mess why the hell did I have to fall for my sisters best fucking friend? This is completely fucked how can I pretend like this isn't happening when every time I see her I want to grab her and kiss her, make her mine but I fucking can't. If Kath hadn't of barged in on us last night I am fairly certain we would have had sex in the bathroom I guess it's a good job she did because that's something we would never be able to take back and if it wouldn't have been Kath it could have been someone else. I'm still pretty fucking pissed Jo completely ignored me after she walked back out with Kath, she didn't so much as acknowledge me in the slightest I don't know what the hell was said but whatever it was she completely shut down. I can't sit here and be in my head today I need a distraction, grabbing my phone I text Felix.

*HFT🚀-
Footie? *

*Felix🤘 -
yeah bro I'll let the boys know just gonna get a shower and shit first*

*HFT🚀 -
Safe bro just come over whenever your ready*

I change into my shorts and T-shirt and just as I'm putting my boots into my bag Felix walks into my room.

"Morgz, Jack, Ollie and Valand are meeting us here in 20 minutes they said." he says sitting on my chair putting his dirty ass boots on my desk.

"Felix man get your fucking boots off my desk." I say shoving his legs.

"Alright chill out bro." he says holding his hands up.

We sit there for about five minutes before he turns to me.

"You alright man? Have you spoke to her?" he asks weary of my reaction.

"Nope once again I'm being ignored" I huff.

"That's shit bro I honestly think you two need to sit down and talk properly.. you think you can just ignore what is happening but you can't." he says.

"I know we fucking can't but as usual she makes the decisions not giving a shit about how I feel.. she's the one who has made the move each time and then always pushes me away." I snap starting to get annoyed with the conversation.

"Then talk to her man and when I say talk I mean talk properly instead of ignoring it and jumping each other's bones," he says slightly smirking.

"You know what fuck her I'm done I don't need this bullshit," he just stares at me.

"Hero man you don't mean that," I grab my bag.

"Yes I do, come on I'm not wasting no more time talking about it." I don't wait for his response I just storm out my room heading downstairs.

We spend the next few hours playing footie until the boys call it I could of happily carried on but it looks like they are all going to pass out any minute the bunch of drips. We are all walking back sweaty as fuck and we pass a group of girls who are in our year.

"Helloo ladies," Morgz says winking.

"Boys," they nod, I can't help but notice Elle staring at me smiling she's fit enough yeah but she's no Jo.

"Come on man I want to get a fucking shower," I say nudging Morgz.

"Wait bro I'm talking," he says flashing his perfect smile at them.

"Whatever bro I'm off," I say walking off as Felix follows.

"Hey!?" Miriam shouts.

"Can Elle have your number Hero?" I don't bother to turn around.

"Morgz has it," I shout back as we turn the corner that's probably a shitty move on my behalf but if I have a distraction in Elle maybe I won't think about Jo as much.