Wanting what you can't have..

T e n - He's my brother Jo

Jo

"Can we just talk about this?" Mercy says breaking the deafening silence in the room. I still can't believe me and Hero walked in on Mercy and Felix in a heavy ass make out session on the couch so I guess it's not just us who get interrupted.

"Let me talk to Felix, alone." Hero says coolly. Mercy doesn't attempt to protest she just walks out the room Hero nods at me clearly telling me to follow and I am absolutely shitting myself right now knowing I could possibly be about to single handily ruin my friendship with my best friend. As soon as she reaches her bedroom she falls back on her bed with her hands over her face, I know I need to do this now before I loose my nerve.

"Merc?" I barley whisper before she sits up,

"Please don't start Jo I know I was stup-" I cut her off before she can finish.

"No Merc you weren't at all you can't help how you feel but that's not what I was going to say..." I say walking over to her bed.

"What is it?" she asks as I sit down next to her and grab her hands.

"Your my best friend and I love you more than anything or anyone you know that right?" I ask.

"Yeah and same to you you're the cheese to my toast," she says laughing nudging my shoulder and I can't help but cry.

"Heyy, what's wrong why are you crying babes?" she says wiping my cheek with the pad of her finger.

"I'm so sorry Mercy I am a terrible best friend," I cry.

"Stop that right now, you could never be a terrible best friend now tell me whats wrong?" she says hugging me.

"I know your going to hate me after I tell you this but I can't lie to you Merc," I say shaking,.

"Jo your scaring me now just tell me will you," she says.

"Mercy I have feelings for Hero," I say watching her face change.

"What do you mean you have feelings for Hero?" she says.

"I've liked him for as long as I can remember Merc then last year when we got drunk and you told me you think he likes me... well I haven't been able to stop thinking about it and started noticing how he is around me. At that party the other week when we got stoned I stupidly blurted out that I liked him too but nothing could ever happen between us because I wouldn't risk my friendship with you." she doesn't speak she just stares at the wall so I carry on. "I have to be completely honest with you.... I kissed him later that night, if you can remember you woke up in the middle of the night looking for me and just before you walked into the kitchen I kissed him... Mercy I am so so sorry please don't hate me I just couldn't keep this from you." I cry.

"I honestly don't know what to say here," she says letting go of my hand.

"I am so sorry, I wish I never fell for him and I've tried so hard to switch my feelings off I honestly have thats why I wanted to stay at my place for the past few weeks but I can't ignore how I feel about him. The last thing I want to do is loose you, your my best friend, my right arm and I honestly don't know what I would do if I did because of this but I can't deny these feelings anymore they are to strong." I say frantically.

"Jo you do realise how messed up this is? How can I be okay with this? What if you two get together and want to be together all the time and you have no time for me anymore or even worse you get together and break up and you can't bare to be anywhere near each other... he's my brother Jo... this whole situation is messed up." she says running her hand through her hair.

We sit in silence for a few minutes before she looks up at me.

"I love you Jo your my best friend but I think I need some time to let all this sink in," she says and all I can do it nod.

"Okay I understand... I promise I never meant for any of this to happen Mercy but you know where I am when your ready to talk okay?" she just nods before I squeeze her hand and leave her room.

I walk down the stairs and past the Living room not attempting to disturb Hero and Felix I just head out the door. As soon as I reach the bottom of the street I hear Hero shouting me.

"Jo wait," I stop and as I turn around he's already caught up with me.

"Hey why'd you sneak off?" he asks.

"I didn't want to disturb you and Felix I didn't know what was going on so..." I say.

"Everything okay?" he asks trying to read my face.

"I told her if that's what you mean she said she needs some time to process everything," I say my voice cracking before the tears start falling down my face.

"Don't cry babe it will be okay," he says bringing me to his chest kissing the top of my head.

"I don't know what I'll do if I loose her Hero," I say sobbing in his arms,.

"You won't loose her Jo she loves you plus she has Felix now," he says.

"What happened with that?" I ask using my sleeve to wipe my tears.

"I just basically told Felix that if he truly likes Mercy I won't stand in his way I won't be a hypocrite especially knowing I have fallen for her best friend so if she likes mine what can I do? But I've told him he needs to be sure how he feels because if he messes her around ill kill him," he says being completely serious.

"I hope she can be like that over us once she's had time to let it all sink in," I say.

Hero ends up walking me home holding hands all the way and I can't begin to explain how amazing it feels not to worry about being caught. Once we reach my door he brings me into a tight hug.

"It will all be okay babe try not to get to upset over it she will come around she loves you," he says stroking my hair.

"I hope so," is all I can say, he grabs my face in his palms.

"It will," he says then leans in kissing me his lips barley brush mine and my body reacts to his touch. He tells me to get some sleep and try not to panic to much before heading home as soon as I shut the door I see Kath sat on the stairs looking at me with a questionable look on her face.

"Not now Kat I'm not in the mood," I say walking past her and heading to my room. I spend the next couple of hours watching Netflix and going though all the silly videos and pictures of me and Mercy on my phone until my phone pings for a second I think it's her but it's Hero.

*Hero -
I know your scared but it will work out I promise she just needs a little time that's all.. You have no idea what you mean to me this wasn't all for nothing babe everything will be okay I promise xxx❤️*

*Jo💖 -
I hope so...I'm glad I told her I know I couldn't keep on pretending anymore it was killing me to be around you and not be with you and then not being around you and wanting to be I just hope this all works out 😘 xxx*

*Hero -
It will! get some sleep Ill come see you tomorrow ❤️ xxx*

*Here is Jo's pov telling Mercy... Hope its good enough for you all😘 please vote and comment let me know🙏💖*