The love of my life

Part 58

THE NEXT MORING:
J: hey hank morning Erin
E: hey everly baby come one eat
H: moring jay is their something I should know
J: no so Erin you didn't come home last night
E: I did
J: you didn't come to bed
E: ya I slept in the other gusset room I figure an unfaithful wife shouldn't sleep in the same bed as her husband that can't trust her
Everly: mommy what wrong
E: nothing a baby let go dressed uncle Will said he might be able to take you cast off
Everly: ya ya
E: ok I say and grab Elijah and go upstairs as everly follows
H: alright what up with you two she slept in another room
J: I messed up big Time I accused her of cheating on me and being unfaithful and Un trustworthy I didn't understand why she would not take the test I got mad at her and said a lot of thing I didn't mean
H: fix it today I'll take Everly to her appointment and take Elijah with me.
E: ready to go
H: both of you upstairs no I'll take her

ERIN AND JAY:
E: WHAT JAY you have made it very clear how you fell
J: Erin please hear me out
E: talk
J: I'm sorry I'm so sorry I got mad and I lost it I got a letter from the ranger they want me to go back I took that out on you I know how much you love me I know that if anything happed to me you would go off the rails because it hurt so much I know how much you love the kid I was an ass last night please forgive please don't leave me I know we talked about my PTSD and I'm sorry I'll do better I'll keep it under control
E: jay I would never leave you but you really hurt me I would never cheat on you and the fact that you think I did or it even put the thought into you head hurt a lot Will ran a test becouse of my first pregnant and the way the birth happened. It going to be hard for me carry to term or carry at all that why I didn't want to take it but jay we are married you have to talk to me not just blame me for thing and yell at me. Jay you hurt with say that I was unfaithful to you and to kid you brought them into it jay you have never once yelled at me and yesterday you screamed at me you got up in my face you watch me sit their and cry the jay I know I would of stoped you kept pushing and I get that you been through a lot and I also get that you had the right to know.
J: Er-
E: no let me say this you mention your ptsd and ya we talked about that a few days ago but jay what happened yesterday proved my point if you can't keep your temper around me how are you to around the. I have never see you act the way you acted yesterday you scared I know that you would never hurt me but at the moment I didn't know what you were going to do. You need to talk to some about what happed now no more games when I need to get clean you always told me don't fall back I'm hear let me in let help well this is me help no more I can't do this on my own you need to see someone get help I'm not gonna fight you about this but I think it a good idea if you stay away from the kid until you do. Jay your having nightmares screaming in your sleep everly saw you one night she wanted to sleep with us she walked in on you having a nightmare she thought you were hurt it took me an hour to calm her down. Jay if you do what you did to me last night to the kid everly and what she been through she need to see you as her father not a bad guy.
J: Erin you
E: jay you need help I set up a meeting with doctors Charles for tomorrow twice a week. I talked to him he said he think it best if you go while you get in under control the second you do I will let you come back in see the kid. But this had happed to many Time everly walked in on your once Elijah two small to understand thx god. Jay I'm doing this because I love you and your my husband and you will always be. Go stay with your brother I will get updated from doctor chairle when your ptsd is back under control you can come back but I'm think of the kids right now. Hank will stay with me until you get back. I like you two be gone before they get back. I love you so much go to the appointment so you can get back home.
J: I'm sorry e-I'm sorry I say and leave

AN HOUR LATTER:
H: where jay
E: we need to talk
H: ok
Everly: mommy my cast off
E: ohh now you can play and do all the crazy think you like to do mommy and grandpa are going to talk ok
Everly: ok
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E: jay ptsd is back and he spiraled yesterday at me she didn't hit me I know that he would never do that but I made him leave I set up an appointment with Dr. Charles every two week once he has it back under control and has actually gotten some help I'll let him see the kid and come back but all I could think about is what if Everly had been in the room what if he had an outburst everly or Elijah everly had been there she needs to See jay as her father not a bad guy. I need you to stay a little long
H: ya did he hurt you
E: physically no mentally ya he said a lot of thing that really hurt me but I could see the regret in his face he was hurt when he walked out of her he at will.
H: sorry kid
E: it ok