Forbidden Spells

Who am I?

I lie in my hospital bed, like I have done for the past 2 weeks. I am surprised I am still alive. Not because of the unforgivable curse, but because I was stupid. Alice could have easily killed me so could Jaxon and Clara. I should never have gone there in the first place, none of this would have happened. I have taught myself to put up a barrier when it comes to pain or anything that relates to pain. During this time at Hogwarts I have learnt one thing, never let your guard down. Even if you think that you can trust someone, you will never know what their intentions for you are.

I have been thinking recently if it would just be better for me and for everyone if I just left Hogwarts, nobody would miss me. I feel lost here, trapped really. It was a decision that needed to be made soon, it was driving me insane knowing that all I will be if I stay here is a massive outcast. A weak one at that. The one thing that hurts me the most about myself is my absolute lack of self love, I see myself as a failure in most thing. I want nothing more to be strong, brave and loved.

I hear a floorboard creek by the door and I see a flash of black cloak float away. Either some Dementor is lurking around the halls ready to drain the remainder of my soul out of my body OR that was Professor Snape. What would he be doing here of all places? I ask myself.

"Miss Shirley-" a voice speaks to me and I turn around, It was Madame Pomfrey. "How are you feeling dear?" she asks with a smile on her face. "Much better now thank you" I lie with a smile. I'm still in agony but I really want to get out of this hospital I think to myself. "Well thats good news, just to let you know you can return to your chamber now. You will still have some pain but thats just expected at this point" she says. "Thank you for the help ma'am" I say smiling. I slowly get out of my bed to change my clothes.

I pick up my books from the hospital bed side table and walk out the doors, I feel a bit more calm now I am out of there. I head down the staircase to the dungeon, I reach my chamber and open my door to be greeted by my cat. "Oh God" I think to myself and I go to check his food and water bowls, they were both full- who on earth fed him whilst I was gone? I check him over to make sure he is okay. I look around my room for any clue to who was in here, that's when I see a small piece of folded parchment attached to my mirror. I reach for it and open it.

"I figured that he needed some looking after whilst you were in Hospital. Feel better soon." There was no name, how typical I think to myself. I learnt three things though; Whoever wrote this note knew where my room was, knew I have a cat and knew I was in Hospital. My mind began to wonder to one person in particular. No way it was him, frankly I think he hates me or something I just get a really weird vibe off him. I sit down on my bed as Pip purrs softly, I had not seen him for a while so it felt good to have someone. Even if it was an animal, they are better than people sometimes.

Suddenly a huge flash of white appears right in front of me, so bright it practically blinds me. I look up blinking fast to see a little house elf stood in front of me. I sit there in shock as the little elf turns out and jumps with fright. "s-sorry, I did wonder where I would end up this time" the elf says, shaking. "T-thats alright, If you don't mind me asking who are you" I ask the elf. "Winnie, ma'am. Winnie the house elf." the little elf says hopping onto the bed sitting next to me. "Nice to meet you Winnie, um not to seem rude or anything of the sort but what are you doing here" I ask with a concerned look on my face.

"Winnie is here to help, Winnie heard of the impossible girl at Hogwarts and Winnie thought this would happen" the elf said wiggling her little boots. "What do you mean thought this would happen" I ask. "Winnie knew you would be lonely and that everyone would be scared because you are different, Winnie knows how it feels to be lonely and Winnie never wants the same thing for you" the little elf says smiling up at me.

I could feel myself beginning to tear up, "are you okay ma'am" asks Winnie. "Oh yes, Just- Its been a while I have had a conversation with someone, It's nice. By the way, Just call me Dani" I say smiling down at the little elf. "Of course... Dani" says the little elf.

"Then Winnie met you" she squealed with excitement. Yes I had just heard the whole life story of a house elf and actually it was so nice to have the company. I look up at the clock that showed 12:36, "Oh god is that the time, I'm sorry Winnie. I have to get some sleep, but please come back whenever you have time" I say with a smile. "Of course, Winnie is happy to be friends with Dani." she says looking up at me and giving me a hug.

Another flash of light appears and Winnie disappears, a tiny little piece of paper falls to the ground. I pick it up and turn it over- It's a picture of me. "Why would Winnie have a picture of me? I only just met the elf" I think to myself. I peer closer at the photograph there is a signature, Its really faint and hard to make out but it looks like "SS" I ignore it and put it on the table. I was happy to have been able to not be alone even if it was for one day.

I head over to my bed and collapse, I wail in pain as I land on the side that has the massive gash from being thrown into a tree branch by Alice. I look up to my ceiling and think about all that has happened since I got to Hogwarts. I have only got one chance here. One chance to prove myself and to be who I really want to be.

One thing that I keep thinking about is Professor Snape. There was something about him, The way he spoke. The way he Moved. The way he could make you fear him so easily. I wish I knew more about him, I wish I knew why he hated me so much. I sigh and slowly close my eyes.

END OF CHAPTER 5: I HOPED YOU ENJOYED THIS ONE :)