Forbidden Spells

A Friend at Last

As I slowly get out of the bed, Snape approaches me. He looks down at the floor the whole time until he is stood right next to me.

"I have some news for you" he says with a slight smile, I quickly look up at him. I fear the word "news" now as I have come to fear it always means something bad.

"The Headmaster wishes me to inform you that you can now have classes with other students, if you so wish" he says, he didn't seem all that pleased. Then again why should he even care, I wasn't his friend. As much as I wished I could be, he seemed like he needed someone most of the time.

"I thought I was to dangerous to be around any of the other students, why the sudden change of mind" I ask, I was really confused.

"Dumbledore thinks that with you being isolated from everyone else it is doing you more harm than good, you need human interaction" he replies, his gaze wanders around the room and he goes to sit on the end of the bed.

"Something tells me you don't think this is such a good idea, I mean yes it is what I have wanted since I got here but now its different. Everyone hates me, none of that has changed" I say with a shallow tone.

He stares at me for a few seconds before getting up and beginning to pace ever so slightly. He seemed to be more worried about this whole situation than I was. I really wanted to live a normal life here at Hogwarts, but deep down I knew nobody had forgotten what I was, that I would still be an outsider. I didn't know what to do at this point.

"Listen. It's up to you, I'm not here to make decisions for you. its your behaviour that screws things up for you, nothing else" he says, frowning at me. I could feel my face begin to drop, why did his anger towards me make me feel so low. Why do I even care what he thinks.

"I know you just think I am some pathetic girl with anger issues, but I never asked for any of this to happen" I say glaring at him.

He says nothing, he just looks at me for a few seconds and then leaves. I turn around and let out a few tears I had been holding in, his words played back in my head. I knew somewhere inside me was a person that could change, that could just ignore what people think about me. I just could not find her right now. I sit on the bed and let out a sigh, I had a decision to make and I needed to make it soon.

The Next Day

I walk down the corridor to see if Snape was anywhere to be found, sure enough he wasn't. We hadn't spoken since yesterday, I should just let it go and move on but he found some hint of pleasure in insulting me and I hated it. Maybe my judgement from when I first saw him was true. That he was just a angry man with a temper; he sure as hell thought the same about me. So why did he let me stay here? Especially if he feels the way I think he does about me.

I look at the clock that he had floating just above the fireplace, his class began in 12 minutes. Was I ready to try and be a normal student? I knew there would be people there that hated me and others that would just hate me because of fear. I could not really win, but I needed to try.

I walk down the long corridors, I see a few people pass me on the way. None of them said anything they only stared at me. I approach Professor Snape's Potions class and stand outside the door, I take a deep breathe and walk inside. I see eyes looking at me and students muttering; I spot an empty seat in the corner and I go and sit down. Snape was nowhere to be seen.

I was not the last one to arrive in the class though, as I turn around I see a Ravenclaw boy looking around the classroom. There was only one seat left and it was next to me, to my surprise he walked over to me.

"Is this seat taken" he asked, smiling at me.

"N-no, it's free" I say, stuttering.

He giggles and places his books on the table, he pulls the stool out from under the desk and sits down.