Forbidden Spells

A choice to be made

"Come on, get up or I'm gonna have to carry you" Theo says, I could tell he was panicking a bit.

"Just go Theo... If something is happening to me I don't want you to get dragged into the middle of it" I say softly, I felt so weak. I was not surprised though, I did just cause a massive explosion without meaning to.

"I'm afraid I am in this whether you like it not, now come on we have to get you out of here" He says.

"Theo..." I say slowly.

"Yeah" he replies with a forced smile.

"Do you think I am becoming evil" I ask, my voice shaking.

"Dani- you are not evil. Look I don't know what's going on but I am sure we can find an answer somehow. Why would you think that though" he replies with a concerned look on his face.

I knew what was going on. It was my emotions, I could not control them and now they were controlling me. Maybe everyone was right to fear me from the start. I knew I should stop thinking the worse but I had nothing to ground me anymore. That's what Severus is...

That's what Severus was.

"I just have a feeling, you know how people say Evil isn't born its made" I ask Theo

"Yes- but Dani you are not evil. Please trust me on this" He says, looking at me with sad eyes. I say nothing. I wish I could believe him, I wish I could believe myself.

"Come on we need to get you to Professor Sprout" he says, slowly picking me up off the ground.

"NO. No teachers are getting involved, I will be expelled If they know what I have done and thats the last thing I want" I say.

"What are we supposed to do then" He asks looking confused.

"WE are not doing anything. I am, thank you for the help Theo but I need to face whatever this is on my own. I don't want something like this to happen again and on the off chance it does. I don't want you getting hurt. So please- leave" I say, tears were flowing down my face. I was pushing away the only friend I had, to protect him from whatever I am becoming.

"I..I can't just leave you! Who is gonna protect you? I know you have nobody else Dani" He says with pain in his voice.

I stand up and slowly walk away from him.

"I am not going to stay here and hurt you Theo. I'm sorry" I say, and with that I pick up all the strength I had left and run as fast as I can. I had no clue where I was going or what I was doing all I knew is I was terrified. The stupid thing was I was running from the one person I could never leave... Myself.

I run until I physically could not go any more, I collapse next to a giant stone. I could still see the Hogwarts Castle, I had no clue if I was even going to go back. I wanted to- but only for one reason.

It was all a mistake

It meant nothing to me

Stay away from me

His words were scarred in my mind. I wanted to hate him, I wanted to punch him in his stupidly perfect face. I didn't blame him though, not really. I pretend I am strong but when I am faced with serious situations like emotions and feelings I never know how to cope- I had never had feelings for anyone so why. JUST WHY did I have feelings for HIM?

I look down at my hands that were burnt and bleeding, I had nothing to cover them up. I look around to see if there was anything I could use to magically heal them. Out of the corner of my eye I see a tiny stream flowing.