Forbidden Spells

A Darkness Is Born

Severus...

I want you, I want all of you. I know we have to be careful but I can't deny my feelings for you. You need to be touched, to be held and above all... to be loved.

I need to be careful Dani, one wrong move with this and I could lose my job. I have obvious feelings for you but I'm not about to risk my job for you. I'm sorry.

severus? severus! I yell as he slowly fades away.

I wake up with a jolt, my breath racing and my heart beating out of my chest. It was a dream yet again, I had come to the conclusion that this was my subconscious trying to tell me that Severus didn't actually want me. It had been 3 days since we had shared a moment in his office, I didn't regret anything but I was sure he did. That bothered me majorly, the whole not knowing. I wanted to talk to him about it but I have not spoken to him since. I think he was avoiding me on purpose.

I look at my alarm, It was 12:48. I was supposed to have a Potions class in 10 minutes, I didn't want to go. If what I think is happening IS happening, I would rather just not see him at all. I didn't like the idea that it was just a one off mistake. Not with him, that would break me. I sigh and slowly start to get dressed. I had no motivation today, I felt physically and mentally drained.

I head out of my chamber and begin walking down to the Potions classroom. I see Theo stood outside the door waiting, he still didn't know about my feelings for Snape and now I wasn't so sure If I should even tell him, not because I didn't trust him. Because I wasn't even sure about my feelings anymore, what happened with him was special to me but If I decided to confront him about and he says it was a mistake... I probably will just leave Hogwarts. I came here for a good education and school life, but I stayed for him.

"Yet again you look awful" says Theo, looking down at me.

"What the heck do you mean 'yet again', bloody cheek" I say, rolling my eyes with a smirk.

"I mean the past few days, you come here looking like the corpse bride. You still aint told me what you were going to 3 days ago, whats going on" he says, slowly glaring at me.

"Nothing you need to worry about, just something I am trying to sort out" I say, looking down at the floor.

"Is it to do with Professor Snape" he asks, looking me dead in the eyes.

"Why do you say that" I ask, looking back at him.

"Because you always look miserable and upset in this class, I have seen it. I didn't say anything because I wasn't sure. Dani is there something going on with you two" he asks.

"I.. I don't know. I really wish I did though, I'm sorry I kept it from you I just didn't want you to think badly of me. I mean he is our teacher after all" I reply

"Are you kidding me?! I have fancied so many teachers, but look at you actually having the balls to pursue him. Saying I am proud would be an understatement" he says with a wide grin on his face.

"That's a weight of my mind then, I would hardly call it pursuing him though" I say, smirking.

"Well? Have you two.... YOU KNOW" He asks, walking up to me and making smooching faces.

"We have, that time I got sent to the office" I reply

"OH MY LORD. I wondered what was going on in there" he squeals with excitement. It was actually so nice that he was supportive and understanding, most people would think it is unacceptable and disgusting behaviour. Theo, luckily was not most people. I felt happy telling him about it but I didn't notice my face had dropped into a frown.