Selenva (Under Edit)

Chapter twenty-nine

Chapter twenty-nine

We woke up today looking forward to the fair, now that we are here it hardly seems real. Everything has been going so perfect with Derek. He woke me up to coffee and a home made breakfast, which was a great start. He has been taking me on rides, that I never thought for one second Id go on. Making me laugh even though I don't feel worthy to. Derek is everything to me right now, in a stable sense, after everything that has happened with Sarah's death. 

I dreamed peacefully last night thankful for having him near. Sarah's face was the first thing that popped into my mind this morning. Remembering her laugh, smile, and smell were hitting home. The more days that pass without her the more my heart dies and my conscious kicks me in my ass. I blame Aiden for her death and for everything that went wrong. He is evil and I wish he will never appear in my life again. I feel also like it is my fault she is gone. I brought him into my life, along with his chaos. So isn't it my fault? I'm the one who let him close to everything I love, and in so hurting them. 

Her death is on me, no matter what or how hard Derek trys to argue that. I feel so guilty for being here without her. She always loved the fair. She would run around eating cotton candy and giggling. Some of my favorite memories are her here with me. She told me she could always have fun here, without the rides. So we would walk and play some of the concession games. I miss her more and more. 

I heard Derek calling me, pulling me  out of my thoughts. He is standing in front of a puppy stand, petting a little Labrador. Time to start walking over there. "What are you doing?" I asked. He smiled up at me on one knee. "I want you to pick out a puppy. I will keep which ever one you choose." He replied. What the hell am I going to do with a puppy? I can't take care of myself right now let alone a damn dog. "No, I don't want a puppy. They are to hard to maintain right now."  His forehead creased. "Selenva, I told you I would keep the pup. Just pick one that you like and it will be our dog."

My pocket started vibrating, ripping my eyes off Derek's pleading face, I pulled it out to see Dallas's number. I looked back down at Derek saying, "Dallas is calling, I'll be right back." I turned around and quickly pressed the green button. Expecting to hear Dallas on the other end. "Hey Dallas, what's up?" I heard sniffling in the back ground. What is going on? "Selenva, this is Dallas's mom."  My breathing slowed instantly. "What is it? Is everything okay?" I heard her breathing pick up. "No honey, Dallas called his father and I on are way back for Sarah's funeral. He sounded terribly ill and told me that he called an ambulance to pick him up from are house."

"He told me he couldn't drive and that he was having trouble breathing. As soon as I could I rushed to the hospital....he is in a co...comma." She said with her voice cracking. I cupped my hand over my mouth, not being able to fathom what she just said. How could this have happened? "What from? Do the doctors know?" I asked quickly trying to hold my tears back. Still crying she said, " They say he doesn't have long, and if you want to come say your good byes...now is the time Sell." Hearing her call me Dallas's nick name struck me with hurt.

Ohh no, not Dallas! Not my Dallas! "I'm on my way Emily." I told her hanging up the phone. A flood of tears streamed down my face as I turned to see Derek walking over to me. He came over and grabbed me into a hug. "What's going on baby?" He asked sounding hurried. "I.." my voice left me. I couldn't come to say this to him. Dallas is going to die? Dallas! "We have to go to the hospital! Now! It's Dallas! It's Dallas!" I cried. I felt him pulling away to look at me. He looked confused for a second then hurt. 

"Who was that on the phone with you?" He asked. I will never be able to get the sound of Emily crying to leave me. Dallas's mom has always been joyful and happy. So hearing her like this...is to much. "Emily, Dallas's mom..She told me Dallas is in the hospital right now in a co-" My voice failed me again. This is to hard to believe! "Coma." I whispered looking back to the floor. "We have to go then. Come on let's talk more on the way."