Trapped in my head.
It's like I'm trapped
And there's no way out
Stuck in between four walls
Echoing screams and shouts
In the darkness and nightmares
I feel it following me
I can't remember a time
Where we all were free
Number one I'm saying this to stop the spelling mistakes
I get them each and every lesion and I'm about to break
Number 2 I don't want to be judged for what I say
Telling people is scary so don't go away
I don't really know how to start
How about we start with the assumption I'm smart
Its human nature to judge a person's outside
The inside is something I've learnt to hide
At school I struggle to keep up
I keep my head down and nod to cover it up
You can't see anything there are no marks on my skin
But I can feel the pain when the hurt seeps in
To be honest it scares the future, my life
I have thought it would just be easier just to get a
No, no I can't do that
Let's change the subject... how I think I'm fat?
I can hear them whispering, talking behind my back
The cutting words as if they launch an attack
The mirror is my worst friend
It only takes one look and I want it to end
The constant social stress
I know that in the school, in the country I am blessed
But all I see is pressure from every angle
I mean when will I need to know the hypotenuse of a triangle
I'm not going to have a rant about school
You would be here forever and that's just cruel
But because of the pressure and the gentle bullying
I resorted to not consuming
I knew that didn't rhyme but I refuse to say the word
because I know if I do someone could have heard
I know its unhealthy and I'm trying to stop
But every time I think I'm back on top
I slip and fall down an endless pit
I can't get out; I can't move and I just loose it
I have thought about it you know
Melting away in the sun or the snow
But I'll continue fighting until I am warn out
Until then I'll stand tall and work it out
Still I know that I'm trapped in here
I know those monsters won't ever disappear
I'll still be judged, picked on and called a disgrace
But no one will ever know because there's a smile on my face.
