“What… do you mean?” You asked in puzzlement.
Luhan chuckled and rubbed your head, “Jiwoo, listen to me.” He said, “I can understand your feelings, but you should not go on like this. Kai would be very sad if he knows you didn’t release him. You are not alone, you still have us. Therefore, you don’t be sad anymore.”
Your eyes softened but you didn’t reply. You looked up at the sky and held out a hand, It is heavy rain. You hugged yourself and avoided Luhan’s eyes. He sighed, he felt you were not yourself after the incident. “Jiwoo—“ “The rain.. It is like to know how I feel.” You slightly smiled. “It represented me to tears. Kai and I have made a promise, but he also had ruined it. I keep trying to accept the fact that he’s gone, But It is too hard. I can’t.”
Luhan looked at you with sympathized look. You took a step, Rain has soaked you but you didn’t care. Luhan gasped, he pulled your wrist and searched your eyes. “What did you think?! You can get sick!” He snapped.
You yanked your wrist and forced a laugh, “I DON’T CARE! JUST LET ME DIE AND GO AFTER KAI! OF MY WAY!” You were about to ran away but Luhan caught your wrist and hugged you tightly. “YOU FOOL! YOU THINK EVERYONE WHO KNEW YOU WOULD BE HAPPY IF YOU DIED?! DON’T TALK NONSENSE!”
You cried again and sank on the ground. Then, you just think… Why people are happy just like you and Kai will end up like this? Why you should be separated when you start to think that he was.. your destiny?
Luhan helped you to stand up, You didn’t say anything and wiped your tears. Luckily there was a passing taxi, you immediately went home with it. You looked out the window with a blank stare, with heavy rain still falling outside. Luhan took your hand as he squeezed it. You turned to him and he gave you small smile.
You smiled a little and put your head on his shoulder. You were tired. Slowly, you closed your eyes and fell asleep.
***
“Jiwoo…”
“Kai…”
“I miss you, babe.”
“I miss you more…”
You were on your dreamland. Even though it was just a dream, but you were satisfied. You can saw his face again, heard his voice again. You were holding hands with him and smiled at each other.
“Where are we?” You asked.
He shrugged and gave you a smile, “I don’t know… maybe in your dream.” You softened and smiled, “If this is a dream, then I don’t want to wake up from my sleep. The way, I can be with you.”
His smile faded and released your hand. He walked away, you gasped and ran after him. He suddenly stopped then spun around as he slipped his hands into his pockets.
“You can’t.” He said, “You are still alive and I died. We can’t together anymore. Jiwo… Enjoy the rest of your life. I saved you…”
You frowned and took his hands, “Why did you leave me? Why did you break our promise?”
“It was destiny. And maybe, I do have to go.” He smiled, stroked your cheeks and gently looked at you. “You are not alone. They are still there for you, they will replace me for keeping you and to be at your side. You can’t go on like this. Let me go, and we will be happy in a different world.”
Suddenly, there was fog. You can’t see him again, those around you is fog. “KAI!” You yelled his name. “KAI!”
“KAI!” You opened your eyes. You breathed and sweat on your face. You looked around and you were in your room.
