You and Chanyeol walked in silence. After bought the fireworks, you are on the way back to Yeji’s villa. You closed your eyes briefly, suddenly remembering the kiss earlier.
You bit your lips and glanced at him, *Why did it become like this now?* You sighed and quickly walked away.
Chanyeol frowned, *Is she angry because I kissed her?* Feeling guilty, he tried to chase you. But you hurried into Yeji’s villa and gave the fireworks to Xiumin. Without saying anything, you walked into the villa.
Everyone looked at Chanyeol in confusion. Chanyeol looked back, he scratched his head and ran after you.
“What’s wrong with them? Are they fighting?” Lay asked.
“Maybe.” Xiumin shrugged. He and Sungji playing the fireworks again while Yeji looked curiously into her villa. *Something is fishy…* Yeji thought and bit her lips.
Baekhyun glanced briefly into the villa. Such as Yeji, He is also curous. But somehow he didn’t think much about ti and joined Xiumin and Sungji.
Luhan stared into the villa too. He was also curious and fear haunting him. He put his fork on the table and walked into the villa. “Where are you going, Luhan?” Suho asked.
He was a little surprised and then smiled a little, “I want to go to the bathroom.” Suho mouthed an ‘o’ and nodded. Luhan walked into the villa to find you.
“You were angry with me?” You were in the kitchen and back to Chanyeol. You don’t dare to face him because you were shy. Still, you are still pounding because of the kiss.
“Jiwoo.” He called. You didn’t reply or spun around. He sighed and walked closer to you.
Then, you felt a warm arms wrapped around your waist. You startled, nervous, and blushed. It is the same as when Kai do that to you.
“I ask you again, are you angry?” He whispered in your ear. You shook your head. “Then why don’t you look at me?” He asked. *Because I don’t want you to see that my face was flushed, stupid!* You shouted inwardly.
“Jiwoo, please don’t make me feel guilty to you.” He said, “If you are really angry, then I apologize. I know this is wrong, forgive me. I would not do that to you again, I will not kiss you anymore. I’m sorry…” He said in regret.
Your eyes rounded, you feel afraid that if he doesn’t kiss you again. Why all of a sudden you feel disappointed?
You released his arms and smiled a little as you spun around , “It is okay, Yes… This is wrong. I feel guilty for Kai, for me.. It is just Kai who can do that. I’m sorry,” You passed him and walked into your room.
Chanyeol’s face fell. Initially, he had thought that you also loved him. But It turns out he was wrong. In your mind, there is just Kai, Kai, and Kai. From the beginning, he knew that he had been lost from Kai.
Without Chanyeol knowing, Luhan and Yeji heard all their conversation. Yeji covered her mouth with her palm in shock. Know you have been kissed, she was really very shocked and angry. Angry with you.
While Luhan felt that he didn’t have another chance. Sadly, he walked back outside and join the others.
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The next day, you completely avoided Chanyeol and you don’t know why.
You were sitting on a swing in the back yard alone. Your mind filled with Chanyeol, Kai, and Baekhyun. For Kai, you thought you have been cheating him. You betrayed and disappointed him.
For Baekhyun, you thought that you had forgotten his confession to you. You thought that you were stupid and unfair.
And for Chanyeool, you feel is unfair for him. You still don’t know how you feel for him. You rubbed your lips with your finger and suddenly blushed as it reminded you of the kiss. “If I don’t love him, Why I didn’t resist when he kissed me?” You said to yourself.
You sighed, *I miss when we still don’t understand this feeling. Love makes us into a strange and change friendship. Don’t you realize the change?* You stood up from the swing and looked up. You were a little surprised to see Baekhyun in front of you.
“Ba-Baekhyun…” You stuttered and avoided his gaze.
He knew if you became strange and always avoided his gaze. He chuckled and flicked your forehead. You startled as you shouted and rubbed your forehead. “Mianhae, You must be confused by it all. Chanyeol told me, so you already knew If he loved you.” He said.
You stiffened and nodded. “You know, iIf I know It’s all going to happen… I would prefer not to know both of you.” You said with a chukle.
He looked at you in puzzlement, “Why? Do you regret having to know us?”
“I’m regret to know that both of you loved me. You don’t understand, This is too sudden and shocking for me.” You said with a serious look, “I can’t forget Kai, I love him. Your confession makes me more upset to accept that Kai had died. You make me hard, everything changed!” You snapped.
“Jiwoo—“ “Leave me alone, Baekhyun. I want to be alone and you already know the answer from me, right? I’m sorry…” You said and back to sit on the swing. You stared blankly in front of you.
Baekhyun sighed, “I know, I’m sorry too, Jiwoo…” He said sadly and left you.
You looked to the sky and smiled sadly, “Kai… I miss you, I want to see you. Right now…” Tears fell down on your cheek but you quickly wiped it. You stood up and walked out of the villa.
You just walked around aimlessly. Jeju is very beautiful, This island never ceases to awe you. You looked up and covered your face because the sunshine. You took a deep breath and happily walked without looking ahead and your feet.
“YAH! WATCH OUT!” “Huh?” You looked down and widened your eyes in shock.
BUK!
A bicycle hit you and make you fell to the ground. You feel dizzy and saw a lot of shadows in front of you, looking panicked. A smile curved on your lips, “Kai?” You said before you black out.
