dallas winstons twin sister

chapter 27

emma
i was dancing with soda when i saw chandler walk in. "i thought you were dead" he said to me."not that easy to get rid of me" i scoffed. "bitch" he tried to slap me but soda pushed me behind him. "why are you here" i yelled. "i was here to get rid of pretty boy but i changed my mind" he said smirking. "screw you" i said punching him.

"i shoulda done this a long time ago" he yelled pulling out a gun. i braced myself for impact but when i heard the gun go off i didn't feel anything. i opened my eyes and saw amber falling too the ground while chandler ran out. "AMBER NO" i yelled and fell to the ground.

"take care of hazel and dally. i love you all" amber said i between of breaths. "SOMEONE CALL 911" I yelled and darry called them. they were here in five minutes but it was too late. she was gone.

1 week later

yesterday was her funeral. i didn't know what to do.
i felt empty. she was gone and i couldn't change it.
it's been a week since she died and everything has changed. dally even got a job. who knew that would ever happen. i haven't really said much since that night. all i can think about is how it's my fault.
it was me he was trying to shoot it's my fault he was even in our lives. darry can't even look at me, he probably thinks it's my fault too or just that i'm too much like amber. soda and hazel have been making sure i eat and drink water and whatever but i just don't care anymore.

2 weeks later

it's almost been a month since amber died. i have stopped talking to everyone. i barely come out of my room. i have like maybe 1 meal every 3 days. I have given up. i haven't seen soda in 2 weeks. i haven't talked to even dally. he and hazel come in my room and ask me questions but i won't talk and they just leave me be. I need to get up and get my life together. amber told me to take care of them and i haven't. i just don't know how.

2 weeks later

i still haven't done anything to get myself together. today's the day tho i have too do this for amber. i walked into the kitchen and made pancakes so i had more energy and i had some water and chocolate milk. dally walked out and said"emma your eating on your own?" i cleared my throat and whispered "yes. i'm gonna go on a walk after i eat"

"your talking now too? and i'm coming with you"
"no i'm fine dallas i just wanna go on a walk. and yes i'm trying now i'm sorry i haven't been there" i said sadly. "it's fine i know you and amber weren't as close here but you were inseparable in new york. at least when i was there" he sadly smiled and went in his room.

i finished eating and got dressed put concealer to cover my eye bags and walked out of the house.
i was just walking trying to clear my head when i turned a corner and ran into someone. "oh i'm so sorry i'm such a-" but then i looked up and saw who it was.

"s-soda?" i whispered awkwardly. "hey stranger" he smiled. "i've missed you" he said sadly. "i'm so sorry soda i've been so selfish i don't know what's happened to me but i've made a dedication to make things better" i said starting to cry. "no it's okay angel don't cry" he said pulling me into a hug. "i'm still your angel?" i said smiling at the name.

"you always will be but if you'll have me" he said smiling. "i'd still like to be if that's okay with you" i said looking up at him. "always" he said and kissed me. "i love you sodie" i said "i love you more" he said. "hey now don't you remember what that keychain said?" i said giggling. "well yes i do i have it in my pocket" he said pulling it out of his pocket.
"good. i mean it too. i'm sorry again that i cut everyone out" i said looking at my feet.

"it's okay princess really darry is doing it too. now let me take you to my house c'mon everyone misses you.  especially steve" he said. "ok let's go then" i said running to his car. "slow down!" he yelled laughing.
this is the happiest i've felt in the past 5 weeks.
we got to the curtis's and was hesitant to walk in.
"it's okay c'mon" soda said taking my hand and we walked in.

"emma?" pony said. "EMMAAAA" steve yelled and pulled me into the tightest hug. "hey stevie wonder" i
laughed hugging tightly back. "hey two" i said hugging him. "hey ponyboy" i said and hugged him. "johnnycakes" i said hugging him. "hi darry" i said. i didn't think he wanted to see me so i was hesitant. he didn't say hi he just nodded his head. i wanted to hug him.

"darrel stand up please" i said. he just shook his head. "now darry" i said sternly and he stood up.
"what" he said. "you are gonna give me a hug whether you like it or not. you may not miss me but i miss my big brother and i know you think it's my fault but i don't care i just want a damn hug" i yelled and he gave me a very tight hug.

"i'm sorry emma" he whispered. "dar when i woke up this morning i was in the same place you were"  i said sitting on the floor "meaning?" he whispered.
"meaning until this morning i wouldn't leave my room. i wouldn't eat i wouldn't talk i barely even showered and by the way you smell awful" i said.
"thanks emma" he said rolling his eyes.

"darrel i miss her too but i made an effort to myself today that i would do what she wanted. she wouldn't want us to bum around not shower and mouth off to everyone" i said. "i'm sorry you're right" he said and started crying. "it's ok dar" i said hugging him. "thank you emma" he said. "we will work on it together ok? i haven't done anything except talk and eat" i said. "maybe i should shower" he said.
"yea maybe" we all said. he laughed and went to shower.

"guys i promise i'm gonna try again" i said sadly.
"i know princess you're strong" soda said smiling.
"we will help you in any way we need too" steve said.
"thank you guys. i love you all" i said smiling and  crying a little bit. "we love you too" they all said.

yikes! don't hate me! stay gold<3