A Land Of Monsters And Men

Release

No matter how badly you tried to fight against Ymir's will. She seemed to one way or another cause you to have a mental breakdown. As if she was holding your mind as a hostage. "Reiner. Allow me to see Christa!"

Reiner moved around the trees with his maneuvering gear. "We can't! Anytime we spend waiting on you will allow them to move in closer to retrieve Eren."

Something inside you snapped making you wrap your nails around his neck but you managed to fight back releasing him.

"Reiner I'm being thrown around by Ymir's will. She won't rest until she's heard Christa's promise. It was the last thing that haunted her before her death! Please, Reiner! I can't be of any use if my mind continues to be hijacked by a dead promise.

Reiner looked at his companion Bertholdt and at Eren. "We can't afford it, we have to keep moving forward! Just fight her off! It's you or it's Ymir that wins!" That sudden desperation started to disappear as you focused.

{He's right. This is my body, my mind! I should control it! I Will! You failed Ymir but I haven't failed yet! I won't make the same mistakes as you!}

{It's not about my mistakes.} Ymir's voice fills your head as she talks about how she always lived for the meaning of others. How she lied to herself in order to save the lives of others.

{You failed your sister. You failed yourself. But you can't make me fail, I have the right to die. Please.

Please just let me have one god damn thing!

I took the blame for others so that they could be safe. I was willing to take the punishments. In the end it didn't matter. I was a monster that had no motivation or goal. I did eat one of their friends.

And I was free!

I wasn't a mindless creature with no memory or thoughts. I was finally able to taste, feel, smell and have a mind of my own.

I desire that more than anything.

Just as you desired to be yourself.

You know your obligations with your sister. Now let me fulfill mine! Or I'll make your life hell!}

Crying you started to shake but understood this was the only way to get rid of her.

"AAAAA!!!" You screamed feeling the strain. Eren watched going like

{What that fuck is she screaming on about?}

"Don't give in!" Reiner shouted.

But you understood Ymir's suffering. You too were nothing more but a soul trapped in the skin of titan. A human within a human monster.

"I'm sorry Reiner I will return." Reiner looked over his shoulder as you released your grip on him letting yourself fall back.

"What are you doing?!"

Eren watched you fall back. {Oh this shit is crazy!}

You smiled at Reiner taking out his knife to slit your wrist as the blood splattered across your face. "I'm saving myself!" Your voice was a mix of Ymir's and yours. A bolt of lightning shot down constructing your bones, muscles, skin and armored plating.

Reiner was taken back as you changed to a female titan but with armored jaws, claws, an armored mask that shielded your eyes only allowing small slits to show your glowing amber eyes.

Your body seemed to be able to allow you to be on all fours if needed. There were two back toes with talons and your spine was spiked out from your back. Ribs that were half stuck out from your skin were plated in armor as well.