𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐞 -ᵐᵃᵗᵗⁱᵃ ᵖᵒˡⁱᵇⁱᵒ

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"there's my baby." mattia walks over and hugs me as soon as his eyes land on me through the crowded room.

"hi." i reach up and kiss him. "you drunk already?" i ask.

"no, i'm driving tonight." he shakes his head.

"i'm not drinking so you can, i'll drive us back to your place." i smile and mattia grins.

"you're the best." he reaches and pours himself a cup.

"isn't she just?" i hear and turn around to see zoe, another person i will be abandoning. "but why?"

"he's just being dramatic cause i'm not drinking." i hug her.

"aw why?" zoe frowns. "got a baby in there?" she pokes my tummy jokingly.

"you calling me fat? if you weren't my bestfriend i'd kill you." i reply and we laugh. "i'm just being a good girlfriend."

"you're always a good girlfriend." mattia smiles at me.

"simp." alejandro chimes in.

"enough with the digs at eachother, let's dance!" kairi shouts the last bit of his sentence as we all laugh and join him.

we dance to the music and mattia pulls me up against him.

"you look so good in that dress." he leans down to whisper in my ear as we continue to dance. "even better when i take it off." he kisses my neck.

"sex is for upstairs." vic says before i get the chance to reply to mattia as she appears out of nowhere with her boyfriend.

"you throw a good party." i compliment her and she smiles, continuing her journey to another room.

"why are you always so nice to her?" mattia scoffs.

"i'd hate me too if i stole her man." i shrug and mattia grins before kissing me.

not my man for long.

if these thoughts don't fuck off i'll never have a good night.

"whatever ale. mattia come take shots with me." zoe says and mattia pulls away from the kiss and rolls his eyes before following my best friend and i laugh.

i walk outside to be met by clouds of cannabis and waft the air around me as the stench upsets my stomach.

"elle!" taylor calls me over and i walk over to meet her and a couple of other people from highschool.

"when did everyone stop vaping? i prefer the smell of strawberries over weed." i complain and the group laughs.

we hang around for abit in the backyard before i get cold and head back inside. i enter the living room to see a big crowd of people singing, mattia being in the centre of it, drunk as hell and slurring the words. i chuckle and attempt to make my way through the crowd to him. i get closer and see he has his arm around a short girls shoulders as they sing together, mattia spots me and smiles before removing his arm.

i turn around and enter the kitchen to pour a shot. i don't like seeing him with another girl, even though i know it's going happen when we break up.

"babe, i'm ready to go." mattia says as i down the shot of tequila. "zoe challenged me and damn she can take a lot of shots." mattia shakes his head.

"let's go." i grab his hand and we head out of vic's house. "should i be worried about that girl you just had your arm around?" i ask once we're outside.

"no." mattia replies.

"okay." i say and then throw up on the lawn. "fuck, oh no." i cover my mouth after being sick infront of vic's house.

"fuck vic, let's go." mattia shrugs and pulls me towards his car. "are you okay?"

"i think it was the tequila." i lie, it's probably the anxiety.

"damn, maybe the bottle was spiked. you shouldn't drive." mattia examines my face as he grips it with concern.

"no, just give me a minute and we'll go." i say and he nods before opening his car door and putting on music.

we can hear it over the music from inside the party but it's very different music, more chill.

"what are you doing?" i ask mattia as i lean against his car and put my head back against it, looking up at the dark sky.

"let's dance." he tries to pull my arms but i shake my head.

"one, i've just been sick and two, this isn't dancing music." i chuckle at him, watching him attempt to dance to brent faiyaz.

"i couldn't read the playlist names, now dance with me woman." he orders and pulls me off the car, holding my hands in his as we dance around like idiots for a few minutes.

"weirdos!" kairi shouts and we turn to see him standing at the front door, recording.

"mind the vomit!" i shout back and point to it as me and mattia laugh at kairi's disgusted face.

"you ready to go? i want my bed." mattia groans and i nod as we hop into the car and wave goodbye to kai.

we eventually pull up outside of mattia's place and it takes everything in me to get him into his room without him making a noise.

"you really are a good girlfriend elle-marie." mattia says as he lays down on the bed.

"don't call me that, crybaby." i put my middle finger upto him and take off his shoes for him as he pulls his shirt over his head.

"i mean it. i'm going to miss you when i leave." he sighs as i take a t shirt from his draw to wear for the night. "we should make it 'elle-marie polibio'."

"i'm going to miss you when i leave too." i take off my dress and put the shirt on as i hear him get up from the bed and walk up behind me.

"don't you mean when i leave, silly." he kisses my neck.

"no." i turn around to face him.

"okay, i know i'm tipsy but i'm confused." he shakes his head.

"i'm leaving new jersey too." i look down at my hands and place them on his bare chest.

"you're coming to la? oh my god yes." he places kisses all over my face in excitement. "i knew the long distance would be hard but we could do it, now we don't even have to." he rants with a grin on his face.

"no we aren't doing long distance, mattia, listen to me. i'm moving to england." i admit.

"what?" he scrunches his eyebrows, his eyes instantly become glossy but he blinks it away.

"on wednesday, i've got a flight to england. i'll be staying there with my nana, for two years for colleg-" i explain.

"wednesday? that's in a couple of days! when were you planning on telling me?" he raises his voice as he backs away from me in disbelief.

"i don't know i just thought-"

"you just thought what? you could leave without saying anything? how long have you known?" he stares me down and i feel so small in his eyes.

"i decided last night mattia." i admit.

"you're just going to leave me? i thought you loved me elle!" he walks to the other side of his bedroom, not looking at me.

"i do mattia! it's been eating me alive, it's why i've been so sick. i feel awful about all of it. i'm not leaving you, you were planning on leaving me first!" i argue.

"across the country to try and get a career not to a new fucking continent!" he shouts before punching a hole in the wall.

"mattia." i say calmly.

"leave, elle." he stares down at his fist.

"but i-"

"take my car and go, now."

they've been toxic since day one-
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