Chapter 9- Part 3
"We pulled up to the reggae club & it was packed!! it looked real small and secluded from the outside, I just knew it was probably about to be really hot and stank inside there. I was super nervous. I knew I was about to enjoy this night though. I was loosening up a little bit. And although I was out with Jay, and very much happy. I couldn't get my daddy off my mind. something about that call was just rubbing me the wrong way. and all I could do was hope and pray that it was nothing to bad or serious. I didn't need it to consume my thoughts. Jay broke me out of my train of thought when he asked me was I ready to go inside, I gave him a vague smile and I nodded. since we already were parked I just went and opened my own door and got out. he was such a gentlemen he did it every time we were together. Once we got inside, it smelt of weed mixed with liquor mixed with all different types of body scents. it smelt gross. I didn't know if I could handle it anymore. or let alone, eat the food that was suppose to be "so good" let Jay tell it.. no one was on stage performing yet, they just played nice reggae through the speakers, which automatically got me ready to dance. I never knew why Caribbean and reggae music made me feel so good and invincible on the dance floor. it just did, I would lose myself in it and let it take over my body. people were dancing everywhere, grinding, twerking, you name it. a lot of men with dreads, even some women, then it was women with Afros and such. I looked around the walls and it was countless bob Marley photos as well as Rastafari colors, it was a feel good vibe I was getting. the more we walked through the club it got more crowded, Jay took my hand in his without warning, and he led the way threw the crowd and people who were dancing. we got to the bar, and sitting area where some people were chilling and having drinks. some even eating. it was stairs leading up to another level of the club, better known as the balcony. I guess the club was bigger than I thought. When we got up there, it was nobody but people sitting down at booth and tables, majority eating. it smelt way better, and I didn't feel like I wanted to gag. he found a small booth by the railing bar, that separated us from the lower level, great view of the stage and everyone below us. I slid in and observed and looked around the club as well as bobbing my head to the music. Our ride here was somewhat quiet, and we sort of haven't said a word since. I guess me thinking about my daddy and his health was taking a bigger toll on me than I needed it too. I got lost in my thoughts again and he interrupted me.
"You want something to drink?" he asked me.
"Uh, yeah. sure. A bad spice martini if you don't mind." i said, he smiled and nodded and went to go get it. I wasn't drinking heavy tonight. I wasn't in the mood. my martini was basically a damn cooler, so I would have to at least drink 6 or more to even get a buzz going, and that wasn't happening. I just kept it cool.
Jay was back in no time and I was still bobbing to the music in my own little world spaced out with daddy on my mind. I kind of wanted to go straight to my parents house right after the date, since it had me buggin so hard. I guess Jay noticed, I hope he didn't think it was him though.
"Bey, are you okay?" he asked me seriously and sincerely. the area we was in he didn't have to yell or raise his voice as loud, cause the music wasn't blasting like it was at the lower level and bar below us.
I gave off a guilty and embarrassed smile. I felt bad that I even looked like something was bothering me.
"I-im sorry Jay, I just got a lot on my mind. I didn't mean for it to be as obvious. I just wanted to get through and enjoy this night." I said truthfully.
"We can talk about it if you want." he didn't look bothered at all. he really did look concerned. and although I didn't want to talk about it, just because he asked made me second guess it a little.
"I-I don't know if you want to really hea-.." He cut me off, and sighed.
"Bey, I'm here to listen to whatever you have to say. ight, so shoot!" he said simply and gave me his undivided attention. I sighed and looked down. I really didn't want this to ruin our date.
