Chapter 3
"Once we left the Salon, it was already a quarter til 2. I made sure I let my mother know I needed to be on the road heading back to my side of town, no later than 3:30 for my class at 5:00 that evening. When we arrived at Popeyes it wasn't to many people In there, so we got in and got out thankfully. We sat and ate in the car, because we both were freezing due to the weather. We both wanted the heater. after we got Into the car, it was quiet for a moment, while we were getting our food situated, then my mom decided she wanted to make small talk about the part of my life I hated talking about because it was pretty much non-existent. My Love Life..... now, I'm not one to bash all men because I've had a few bad break ups, I understand and know all men are definitely not the same. I just honestly gave up on trying to find out for myself. every guy I pretty much came in contact with or tried to pursue me only was after one thing and one thing only, sex.
"So, how's your friend?" she asked me.
I rolled my eyes, because I knew exactly who she was talking about and I didn't feel like talking about him, every time she brings him up, I dismisses the convo before it begins, and what part of we aren't friends didn't she understand, I've said it so many times. I just eventually gave up on trying to get her to get that and accept it.
"Ma, I haven't talked to Rodney since before graduation. I told you & daddy I was done. I don't know why you guys find that so hard to believe" I said a bit annoyed.
"Well, I'm sorry baby. I just thought you two would have worked it out by now. you know, you guys were pretty serious."
"Yeah, we were serious" putting emphasis on were.. "until I caught him with that girl. then, when I was willing to forgive him, it blew right back up in my face only to find out that it was a routine for them to be sleeping together." When i said that, i felt anger began to swell up, so I needed to end this. I was tired of getting angry because of his ass. "Ma I really don't want to talk about Rodney, I'm finally at a place in my life where I rarely think about him, and I'm slowly but surely still getting over him" I said stuffing my mouth with a biscuit, "I wish him nothing but the best, him and Lauryn." I concluded.
"is Lauryn the young woman you found him wi- ?" she started to ask, obliviously.
"Yes" but I cut her off. "and I forgive the both of them. I'm moving on. " I said , "well, I'm trying.." I said more to myself & under my breath, she didn't hear me.
"Well baby, I'm still sorry that you had to deal with that. but I know it's going to be good for you in the end. I'm looking forward to the day I get to meet your lucky guy. you deserve someone who cherishes the ground you walk on baby." my mother said to me sincerely, I sort of smirked to myself as I listened to her, while eyeing my chicken. that was sweet of her to say. although I was just a tad bit insecure about a few things, I couldn't have agreed more.
Rodney Devon Wilkins, He was my absolutely everything. we met my second semester as a Sophomore in College. he was the Quarter back for our school football team, so typical & cliche right? well, he was a complete gentlemen that surely knocked me off my feet when we first met. 6'2, chocolate and fit, the perfect smile and the perfect lips. I was definitely in love. I always found it amazing that it didn't matter how popular he was around the school or town, he always kept his humility. He was the sweetest boyfriend ever, my first real one. We did everything together. I took him home to meet my family one Thanksgiving and everything. although he wasn't my actual first, i liked to say he was, because with him I enjoyed sex more than anything. he's the reason I Thanked God himself daily, for the male tongue. my lord, how it did wonders. I'm convinced that's what made me fall in love with him. I mean, the pipe was wonderful and wore me out frequently. but that tongue..... I couldn't even begin to explain how amazing his head game was. that's what had me sprung. plus he was just the perfect dream, he got good grades, he was loving, caring, fine, sexy, nice body, smart .. everything you would want in a man. we had plans of buying a place together after graduation and everything. I loved Rodney, so much. it made it so much more fun to be with him because not only did every female breathing want him, but the niggas wish they were him with me being on his arm. and I don't say that to sound cocky, I just was recognized for my looks and beauty before anything else. and Rodney was the first man to ever make me feel like I was worth so much more.
