DEAD ASS LOVE! (Deadpool x Reader)(EDITING)

Room Mates

                                                                                      Deadpool's POV

I was hesitant about what to say to Y/N, Was I really that harsh and rude? I know I've been told that I'm one hell of an asshole but Y/N looked like she was on the verge of tears. I felt bad knowing It was also my fault for the explosion in her apartment, I heard her on the phone at the grocery store and she honestly sounded really stressed. I put my mask back down not knowing what to say, I'm honestly not the best at reassuring people or comforting them because I can be heartless sometimes. I didn't know I was that harsh on this chick, Did I really make her feel like that? I felt even worse since she made tacos for me!! think wade think! Okay.. Here goes nothing! Watch me make her cry even more- I hate comforting people because I make things worse! once I was tryna comfort weasel because his hamster died due to me sitting on it. It was funny but yet he was mad at me for at least 2 weeks! Okay, focus wade... "Err.. well You aren't a bother at all, I hate apologizing to people but uh yeah I never meant to make it seem like I hated you or making it seem like you are in my way. I have personal reasons why I was very stubborn and rude to you to be my roommate. I have a hella dangerous job in fact there can be a sniper right across my apartment aiming at me. I am uh actually kinda feeling guilty for ruining your apartment too. You arent a bother I just have a lot of issues in my head haha... Uhm but yeah you don't have to leave if you know that things are still not figured out Y/N." I inhale, Wow Good job me! usually I handle things like this by just making jokes but I kinda know how she feels feeling like she is a bother. I mean I AM annoying after all, I'm surprised she can even stand me too. She looked at me slowly and finally spoke up, "I see, I was just making sure I know how busy your life can be handling all those uh bad guys or whatever I didn't want to get in your way at all. I understand what you mean by. that's good that you feel that if I would be in danger, I mean I am but we'll see what happens." she states quietly with her H/C getting in her face, I feared that If I get attached It'll happen again.. and what I mean by that is that If I get attached and She ends up dying it'll actually be my fault. I had many friends and family die just because of my existence and it drowns me with guilt. I hate even talking nor thinking about this because it happened too many times. I know why Colossus did this and I know how hard he is trying but honestly, it makes me feel even more guilty seeing he is one of the most bitchiest and most boring people ever yet he is still one of my friends. I hate losing people I care for so I tend to push them away instead, It's silly how tough and cool I look yet my mental health is worse than ever. The amount of times I tried ending this constant loop of living fails and it is embarrassing seeing my own friend drag me in a bag with all my body parts scattered. I myself have been through a lot in my childhood and not only that but now. sometimes I wish I can evaporate from the world, As edgy as it sounds it is true. In fact, I'm just like everyone else, I'm not very special either. I am the unluckiest guy in the world to be cursed by living a stressful life of killing, crying, eating, sleeping, and other things too. Not only that but the shit I was diagnosed with makes me snort because it explains how FUCKED Up I am!! ... I was lost in my own thoughts when I noticed Y/N was Lost in her own thoughts too. I snapped out of my daze, "Sorry, I zoned out- Anyways you arent no bother its okay, Uh by the way I'm not sure if you have a bed to sleep in." I was thinking about Colossus's statement about being a gentleman. Psh like ill listen to a cock sucker like him I GUESSS... ill be nice and let her sleep on my bed. This is so rare for me to actually be nice for once, "Oh uh yeah it's okay ill sleep on the couch." She stated,

WHY DOES SHE MAKE ME FEEL SO GUILTY!?! I mentally sigh... "No it's fine I like the couch better since it has the Tv closer, So you can go ahead and sleep in my room I just need to put away uh the weapons and stuff." She looked a bit shock, tch I mean yeah its a bit shocking for me to offer but I mean she did make me tacos- "Okay- are you sure Deadpool?" she asked looking towards me with her E/C eyes, I nodded and slowly backed up to my room. I NEEDED to make sure everything will be clean since uh I do a lot of personal stuff in here ;) I take everything including my stuffed animals because that is embarrassing and stuff it in my closet. I grab the weapons and stuff it under my bed and made sure the floor was spotless. I then make my bed quickly and scoop up my other belongings and throw them into my closet. Heh, I'm such an awesome polite guy!~ I even made my bed for her too. I wonder why I'm being so very nice its a bit funny seeing how the Russian man's words got to me after all. I quickly grab some sweatpants and a shirt then I open the door to see Y/N in her PJ's Not going to lie she was actually very pretty, every woman is pretty in their own way after all. "thank you, Deadpool. You are actually not so bad.. I mean you are pretty talkative but that's a good thing. at least you arent boring" She said kindly as she walked in, That was very.. nice of her to say I guess. A lot of my friends or people around me tell me I'm too annoying or a stupid bitch with an attitude most of the time. Y/N was actually the first person to compliment me for that too! After all, Nobody can resist my greatness and awesomeness! I'm like one of the greatest dudes ever~ "Thanks- I guess, Have a good night and DONT Snoop anywhere." I said with my finger pointing at her. She nodded and gave me a small smile before shutting the door on me, I chuckle at her awkward movement. Y/N was a very uh interesting girl after all she isn't very talkative unlike me but she most likely is very kind-hearted. She also has an interest in the things I most like too. Who knows maybe me and her can become great friends- wait okay what the fuck wade Not this again! Jeez, I'm being a dumny I shouldn't even get attached to her anyway too. I go into the bathroom and get changed from my suit, I left my mask on knowing I wasn't even ready to reveal my disgusting burnt face to my new roommate. I have no problem showing my face at some point  but I wasn't in the mood to explain to her what happened.

I grab some extra warm blankets and jump on the couch. It takes me a while to sleep but for some reason, she was still on my mind. I was frustrated thinking to the point where I just drugged in my head under the pillow to shut myself up from whining. Ugh, this was very annoying I just need sleep for tomorrow since Weasel needed me at the bar for some bullshit. I slowly knocked out into a deep slumber with the stupid mask still on my face.