DEAD ASS LOVE! (Deadpool x Reader)(EDITING)

Heartache

Wade woke up as his whole body was sore, he heard loud footsteps near him making him sigh knowing who it's going to be. "Wade we talked about this.." he said as he sat near the frowning merc, "Do you mind explaining what's going on? Between you and Y/N." Colossus gave a worried look at Wade making him remember what he did.

 He didn't mean to hurt Y/N, He was so overwhelmed and he just wanted to protect Y/N yet did it in the wrong way possible. "You aren't as yourself and you are usually very chattery, It shows that something happened. I entered your apartment and saw Y/N's bags all over the place including things thrown. You also promised not to try to kill yourself again... You jumped out of the window Wade and it is very concerning. So tell me now of what happened." 

Wade decided to throw the middle finger making colossus sigh out of frustration. "You know that no matter how many times you try it won't work. You are damaging yourself mentally Wade." He said harshly as Wade mumbled under his breathe, "I made Y/N cry-" he said quietly making Colossus raise a brow. "And why is that?"-- "I gave her the money for her to get out of my apartment.." He said in a mocking voice as Colossus facepalmed, "I did it because you keep bothering me about repaying her."

 Wade mumbled again, "You are not like this Wade, I noticed you became very quiet and at ease ever since Y/N moved in with you. You used to be very chatty and narcissistic, When I made Y/N move in with you it wasn't only because you blew up her apartment." he paused for a sec, Wade looked over to the metal giant as he sipped his coffee. "I did it because you needed a change and I noticed Y/N never has judged you, she saw your face and didn't seem to mind. You saved her from those men and you also seem to care about her too. She cares for you the most since you showed kindness to her back." Colossus took another sip of his coffee. 

Wade stayed dead silent as ever, he didn't even speak a word from what colossus said because he knew that maybe for once the iron Russian giant is right. "what it seems to me is that you have fallen in love-" Wade instantly cut him off, "NO that is not true at all, You stupid cunt! It's not like that at all! I only did it because I wanted her to just go her own separate way and we won't have to deal with each other. You are a fucking dipshit for thinking that! I'm not in love with anyone at all so stop assuming bullshit!" 

Wade grumbled in anger, "Language please," Colussus spoke again. "Fuck your rules! fuck you! fuck everyone in this damn mansion!!!" Wade screamed out loud as his words echoed through the mansion. 

"You think I have no clue of what you are thinking Wade. You only did it because you fear the things and people you love getting taken away from your grasp. Something happened and it made you want to push her away. So say the truth! What happened between you two?" he blurted it out. 

Deadpool sighed in guiltiness knowing he made the poor girl cry. "One of my targets threatened to shoot her with one of his snipers near her workplace. He said it was because I killed one of his brothers so he might as well take something away from me too." Wade murmured, "So you decided to push her away and hurt her feelings? What exactly did you say? Obviously, it wasn't some simple fight wade, the apartment was a bit of a mess." Wade sighed again at Colossus's assumption. "I said a lot of fucked up shit.. You know what I don't even want to talk about this can I be left alone fucktard?" Wade whined like a child making Colossus shake his head in disapproval. 

"You made one big mistake and even if she moves out she is more vanuerable knowing that she is by herself. Who knows what your target was up to and you simply decided to just snap at her. Think of how she feels Wade," he spoke with a huff- Wade shook his head in disagreement feeling more guilty. He actually never felt this bad over a situation like this, he only wanted to protect Y/N but his issues decided to consume him and make him snap. "You two have a very strong bond and I'm very sure that she cares about you a lot, not only that but I have never seen you ever actually connect with someone before truly." Colossus attempted to make Deadpool realize his mistake. "Why don't you go get her and actually apologize, Who knows where she is at but i saw that the cash wasn't taken. I suggest-" Wade took out a pistol and put it on his chin, He shot himself but of course the merc didn't die. He pretended to be "dead" as he began to do his childish acts. "Wade now is not the time for this." Colossus snatched the gun out of his hand as he grabbed wade by his shirt collar. 

"Stop being a coward and apologize, you know what's right, and what you did was unbelievably selfish yet very confusing. She was safer with you, after all, You provided protection for her but now you gave that up- who knows where she is at and it is your doing for this too." Colossus's wise words made Wade feel more like an idiot, he sighed and took off his mask halfway. He grabbed a cigarette and a lighter to smoke, his breath was shaky as he smoked. "Wade, No smoking-" Deadpool cut him off by throwing the cig at his chest. 

He lit another one and smoked as Colossus lectured about how he should not smoke, Wade was thinking about all sorts of things. He didn't want to be here, he just wanted to get high and forget about everything in the world. Wade got up and walked away as Colossus shook his head again, "Remember what I said." Wade mocked him and walked out of the mansion as he made his way to his apartment building. He unlocked the door and quietly closed it, his frown soon popped up seeing Y/N's stuff scattered on the floor.

 He felt his heart get crushed, he walked around and a small brown familiar teddy bear caught his attention. He picked it up and all he thought about was Y/N. He only thought about her, she showed him kindness and never even judged him. She made him food and always made sure he was okay... He felt so selfish that it was drowning him in a puddle of shame. Her smile was something that warmed his heart up instantly which made him so confused wondering of the soft emotion he felt. He got up and cleaned up her clothes and other stuff that belonged to her. He remembered how her E/C eyes watered up as he screamed at her, he took the stuff to her room and attempted to put everything back as he tried to comfort himself. 

He felt so stupid and guilty for snapping at her, he wished he had enough courage to actually find her but he felt that if he found her.. she would say the words that would crush his heart into pieces. He didn't want her to hate him, He never meant to hurt her at all. He hates admitting it but Colossus was right. He did feel something towards her, he sighed out of frustration and sat on the floor hugging his knees. Meanwhile, Y/N was still in bed, sobbing her eyes out as she felt like she was pathetic for thinking that the merc maybe felt the same.

 They both were falling apart just the thought of it, The two were in love yet they both denied it. Wade especially, he was very stubborn yet deep inside he knew that he fell for the girl. He fell hard for her, her smile, her laugh, her kindness, her eyes.. Wade was so in love with her. Y/N felt the exact same, Wade always made her laugh and his personality was so interesting besides the fact that he is slightly insane. He made her get more curious by the second of what was on his mind. Y/N found him so amazing and overall very likable, even when she felt down and he didn't notice.

 He always made sure to make her laugh, what the words he spoke on the night were they got tipsy at Weasel's bar made her heartache even more. Wade had a side of him that nobody really sees. The merc was a kind man despite his flaws, She felt tears rush upon her face again thinking about all the memories of Deadpool.

 As the tears fell, Wade was finally getting himself together. He put his mask back on and excited the window, he was worried and also wondering where you are at. Y/N though Wade didn't give any shits about her ... little did she know that the man was desperately trying to find her.