Josh pOV
We pull up to a beautiful remote cabin. Something like I have always dreamed about that Colleen and I would retire in one day. It is perfect. Colleen grabs her bags and mine and walks ahead of me. I run to open the door in front of her and there are rose petals everywhere. We walk through the door and drop the bags. I put away all the food and drinks we brought with us and grab Colleen to lay on the couch. We lay there just breathing. Not doing anything else. I have my hands down her back and I am just holding her tight. She falls asleep and I lay there quietly crying while she does. I pray to god not to take her from me. I lay for 1.5 hours. I don't move. She finally wakes up and I tell her to stay on the couch. I go and get some munchies and drinks and bring them back to the coffee table. I start the fire and come back and sit with her. We just sit and stare into the fire while holding hands. This is my dream. "this is my dream Colleen" I say. "I want a cabin like this when we retire okay babe?" I say. She smiles. "I would love that baby" she says. I squeeze her and again sit in total silence. "Joshua....remember you promise from years ago that you made to me" she says. "it still applies" she adds. I turn to her and kiss her. "We will beat it again Colleen" I say. "but I promise" I add.
Colleen POV
I am laying in his arms. Where I should be."I am so glad we took this time to collect our thoughts Josh" I say. "We both need to restrengthen each other" I add. He nods and holds me. "No tears Joshua okay? Please babe I am still here" I say and kiss him. He then picks me up off the couch and we make love on the bed for 2 hours. It was amazing. I love him so much.
***two weeks later**
We have done our trips. They were wonderful and I have every picture in my mind going into surgery. My entire family is here except the kids who are with a babysitter. My parents, Rachel and Matt, Chris,Jessica,Trent and Josh. Josh parents are coming down in a week or so to stay home with us and I think Josh will need his mom and I am thrilled they are coming then. Less for me to worry about. Josh grabs my rings of my fingers like he did last surgery and puts them on his necklace. I kiss him an emotional goodbye and they wheel me off.
Josh POV
The entire family is crying.Colleens mom is the worst. Her and I hug half the time during surgery but when she comes out I cannot show her that I have been crying. She asked for that. I told the entire family that as well so I think that is why we are all crying now to get it out of our system. The doctors come out of surgery and tell me she is in tons of pain so they are trying to control it before letting us see her. But other than that they will do the biopsys and let us know if she will need radiation or chemo.I thank them and wait for the nurse to allow me in. Thirty minutes later they tell me to come in. I can only stay a few minutes as she is in tons of pain. "Hey Baby" I say as I see her look over at the door. "Josh, I can't deal with the pain" she cries to me holding my hand. The nurse walks over and rubs her arm. "The medicine will work soon Colleen" she says to her. I look down at Colleen. "They will keep you comfortable babe. I missed you" I say. "Love you Josh" and with those words she fell asleep.
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FanfictionThis is the third book in a Joshleen series. [1st book WAITED FOR SO LONG 2nd book TESTING FATE] I hope you enjoy....pls comment:)