To Be So Lonely || l.s. ✓

Chapter 34

Harry lay down in the bed with a sigh, bringing a pillow to his chest as he bit his lip.

He knew this week was going to be tough. They were in a hot country, around a pool and the sea. They were going to question Harry. Harry wouldn't be able to wear short sleeves. Harry wouldn't be able to go swimming.

He sniffled as a couple of tears made their way down his cheeks, drawing the pillow closer and burying his face into it.

"Hey." Harry felt the bed dip as Louis climbed in. "You alright?"

"Yeah. I'm okay." He murmured.

"What's wrong?" Louis rested a hand on Harry's shoulder, rubbing it lightly.

"Nothin' don't worry."

Louis knew he wouldn't get an answer so instead he sat closer to Harry, pulling him into his lap slightly. This only made Harry cry more. When someone showed any signs of caring Harry would just grow weaker. He didn't know why but he hated it.

"Shhh, shhh." Louis soothed him, stroking his hair.

Harry's hands immediately gripped at the blanket in front of him as he pulled it up to his face, muffling his crying.

"Louis..."

"Yeah?"

"I-I, would you prefer it if I slept on the, on the sofa...like every night?" He whimpered out.

"No, no. Absolutely not."

"But-but, this, it um, me crying I mean, it happens a lot. Most nights." Harry mumbled in embarrassment. "I don't want you to have to deal with that."

"Look, it's okay. I don't care if I have to 'deal with it', I don't want you to just be suffering alone."

"You must all think I'm so fucking pathetic."

"None of us think that." Louis told him, "I promise you."

"I think I am." He murmured. "I just wanna sleep."

"Try and sleep then."

Harry nodded, shuffling away from Louis so Louis could get fully under the covers.

Harry held the pillow to him, and though his mind was racing he eventually managed to get to sleep.

And the next day when he woke up, Louis was hugging him from behind. And Harry wasn't complaining.

"Sorry." Louis apologised sleepily, but made no move to unwrap his arms.

"'s okay." Harry gave a small nod. "We should get up though, I can hear Niall splashing about."

Louis huffed, "I don't wanna."

"You can go in the shower first if you get up now."

"Or you can and I'll lie in bed for 10 more minutes."

"Okay." Harry shrugged, climbing out of bed and grabbing a change of clothes before heading into the bathroom.

Louis changed his boxers, not bothering to put on any clothes as he decided to go outside. Lying in bed was suddenly too boring.

"Louis! You're up!" Niall grinned.

Louis gave him a thumbs up, "I'm not coming in yet though. Will later."

"How was you and Harry's night?"

"Good?"

"Did anything happen?"

"We slept." Louis stated bluntly, raising his eyebrows.

"Boring." Niall murmured.

"Well I didn't wank him off if that's what you want to hear." Louis added. "Nor did I give him a blowie."