To Be So Lonely || l.s. ✓

Chapter 3

"Gem, I can't. Can we go home?" Harry asked frantically as they say in the car. "I can't do it."

"Harry, it'll be alright. You've already been to one meeting. Come on, you'll be fine."

Harry took a deep breath, nodding his hand before opening the door and stepping out. He spotted Niall getting of his car a few spaces down and walked around the car next to Gemma in order to avoid him.

"Deep breaths alright." Gemma rubbed his arm soothingly as they began to walk in. Gemma waved goodbye as he entered the room silently.

Harry avoided eye contact with the other boys, focusing on the floor as he made his way to his chair.

"Alright Harry?" Liam smiled. "How are you?"

"Fine." Harry mumbled in response, keeping his eyes on the ground.

"Um, so everyone will be coming to mine and we'll be talking about the band later, I think you have the address." Louis smiled.

"Yeah, I do. Unless you've moved."

"No I haven't, same place."

"Okay. Um, what time?"

"Straight after this if that's alright."

"Yeah, should be fine." He murmured, "where's Simon?"

"Oh he's not coming, dunno why. He just said for us lot to meet but he phoned a few minutes ago saying he wasn't coming so yeah." Niall shrugged. "Maybe he fell off his bike."

Zayn laughed at this, leaning back in his chair. "Hopefully."

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"Does anyone want anything to eat? 've got biscuits or crisps or anything really, no fookin' avocados mind Liam." Louis chuckled.

"I'll take the lot!" Niall grinned, beginning to look through Louis's cupboards.

Harry just sat on the sofa awkwardly as the others talked and laughed together in the kitchen, grabbing snacks.

"Harry, d'you want anything?" Louis called as he turned around.

He shook his head, looking down to his hands, listening to the others as they joked about various things he didn't understand.

"Are you alright?" Louis asked softly, Harry jumping as he didn't realise Louis had sat next to him.

"Yeah." Harry nodded.

"You're not, are you? What's wrong?"

"Oh I don't know, maybe that I feel so fucking out of place because all of you decided to just pretend I didn't exist the moment the band went on a break. You know, that might be it."

He took in the sudden silence, noticing that everyone was staring at him.

"Stop fucking staring at me. Everything is great. Everything's fucking great." He snapped.

"Harry, I'm sorry, I-" Louis begun.

"Save it, all of you. Don't try and feed me all your stupid fucking excuses. I know when I'm not wanted." He stood up, grabbing his coat as he headed toward the door.

"No! Harry, stay...please." Louis grabbed his hand.

"I don't particularly want to."

"Please."

"Fine." He huffed, "whatever."

Louis let out a relieved smile, "do you want anything to drink? I have-"

"I'll just have an ice water please. And a bowl of ice cubes."

Niall turned to look at him like he was crazy, "ice cubes? They have no taste and they're cold and urgh." He shivered.