To Be So Lonely || l.s. ✓

Chapter 23

Harry took a deep breath before following the other 4 into the building. He grimaced at the sight of Simon- ew- and took his seat.

"So, you're all here because of some stupid rumours I've heard floating around. About you, Harry."

"If it's about me why are they all here?" Harry leaned back, rasing an eyebrow.

"Because it concerns you all. The rumour is that you're gay Harry, and you seem to be fuelling that rumour."

"Oh, it's not a rumour." Harry rolled his eyes, "I like dick."

Simon's eyes went wide and his face grew red, the boys holding back their laughter at Harry's bluntness and Simon's reaction.

"Don't be so disgusting."

"There's nothing disgusting about it, Simon, all of us in this room have a dick, half the bloody population have a dick, though I wouldn't dare go near yours mind." He wrinkled his nose.

"You're fucking revolting." Simon spat.

"What, so you were absolutely fine with me being unlabelled, but now I've discovered I'm fully gay you hate me?"

"When you were unlabelled girls still thought they had a chance. And nobody ever imagined you'd date a boy."

"Well, that's not me, is it?"

"You'll lose your fans. You're not coming out as gay."

"You're a right piece of work, you are." Louis scowled, "he's gay. End of. You can't stop him from being himself."

"I can and I will."

"We're not going to lose fans because one of the members is gay." Harry groaned.

"Yes you are. Nobody likes gay celebrities. All you'll get is publicity but in a bad way."

"We're in 2020, Cowbell." Niall glared, adding a "learned that off Twitter."

"Either you stay unlabelled, or you leave the band."

"Hey, hypocrite. I wanted to leave the band before but you wouldn't let me."

"I don't care. You're not staying if you come out. You can jeopardise your own career, but you're not bringing them down with you."

"Fine, I'll leave." Harry held his hand up, calmly walking towards the door.

"Tomlinson, what the fuck are you doing?" Simon spat viciously. Harry turned around to see that Louis had stood up and followed after him.

"I'm gay." He gave Simon a sarcastic grin, "surprised you hadn't guessed by now."

Simon looked between the two in shock, as they all stared at Louis in bewilderment. Slowly Zayn stood up and followed. "Bi." He shrugged, "best of both worlds innit?"

Then Liam. "Don't really care."

Then Niall, "well you see, I'm foodasexual." The boys let out a small laugh at that.

"Is this some sort of sick joke?"

"No, Simon." Harry said calmly, "we're big fat raging homosexuals."

"We've got to be one of the gayest boybands now. 4 out of 5 would fuck a boy." Zayn said thoughtfully.

"If you four have a foursome I'll watch." Niall shrugged. Liam just slapped Niall around the back of the head.

"Oi, ye cunt." Niall rubbed the back of his head. "Just saying."

"You're not coming out." Simon said firmly.

"Back to our solo careers it is." Louis said. "God Simon, I thought you wanted the band to come back."

"That was before I found out you're all gay."

"Hold on, you said Harry had to leave if he came out because you didn't want him bringing us down but if we're all a little gay it won't even matter so we might as well stay."

"I don't give two shits if you bring me down. You all deserve to be happy. Even if you won't let me watch."

"Whatever." Simon growled, "we'll talk about this another time. And Harry, tidy up will you? You look a mess."

Harry glared at Simon before storming out after the others.

He looked down at himself with a frown, "well I'm sorry not everyone is perfect." He muttered.

"You're allowed to look a mess." Louis told him, "he doesn't know what you're going through."

"Nor do you." He snapped before adding a "sorry. Sorry, I didn't mean to get defensive. He just pisses me off." The other boys watched Harry cautiously, Harry shooting them a small smile as he ran a hand through his hair. "So, you're gay?" He turned back to Louis.

"Obviously." Louis grinned, holding his hand up and dropping his wrist. "Can't believe none of you noticed."

"I did." Niall grinned, "known for 10 years now."

"And you didn't say anything?" Louis raised his eyebrows.

"Thought I'd let you tell us in your own time."

"Well thank you." Louis smiled.

"I just thought you were a bit camp." Harry let out a small laugh.

Louis tilted his head back and barked out a laugh, "it feels proper good to share that."

"'m proud of you." Harry said quietly.

"Thanks Haz." Louis beamed, and Harry let it slide.

"Well, do you wanna come back to mine?" Niall offered.

"Sure, if you're okay with that Harry?"

"I'm good with it."

"Sick, we'll meet you there." Louis gave a thumbs up. "I'm just gonna head to the toilet."

"Me too actually." Niall added as he noticed the hint Louis was giving him.

"I'll go wait in the car."

Louis watched as Harry traipsed out to the car, following Liam and Zayn who were busy chatting.

"Right, so. Basically, please no alcohol at yours. Harry's you know, so yeah. I don't wanna say too much because it's not my place I just don't want him to feel uncomfortable."

"Yeah, of course."

"Thank you so much." Louis let out a slight sigh of relief, "and don't hint anything."

"I won't. Don't worry. And thank you for looking after him. He obviously needs someone."

"Yeah." Louis nodded, "yeah."

//

"What do you lot want to drink? Got water or orange juice or lemonade."

"Can I have water please?" Harry smiled. He knew Louis must've said something to Niall about no alcohol but to be honest he was alright with it because he knew Louis was looking out for him.

"Same." Louis jumped up, "what shall we do?"

"Jumping off a cliff sounds pretty good." Harry suggested, the only one to laugh being Zayn. "I was joking. You're allowed to laugh." He raised his eyebrows.

"Righttt." Louis said. "Well, other than jumping off a cliff?"

"We could play something. Maybe just talk."

"Can we go for a walk?" Harry asked, "somewhere in the fields or something. I haven't been out in a while."

"Nor have I actually." Liam frowned, "let's go, yeah? Who's down?"

"I'm down." Louis held one hand up as he finished his water.

"Let's gooo!" Niall whooped, running out the front door as the rest of them looked between eachother in silence before suddenly bursting out into laughter.