Love will remember

Chapter 37

Hey here's a little update enjoy!
*Maddie's Pov*

'Hello Miss Horn, how you feeling today?' The polite nurse asks as she has done every hour for the past week of being in this hospital
'Im still fine. Still can't remember much but health wise I am fine. Before you ask yes my rips hurt but they are broken. The pain isnt that bad though' she laughs at my response so I continue with the question I wanted to ask her 'When can I leave?'

'Actually you can leave right now. Your boyfriend, Brad is it? is signing you out now. But you have to come back next week for some tests okay?'
I frown 'He isnt my boyfriend. I dont remember him. And why do I have to come for tests I thought they were all done?'

'Sorry Miss Horn... I just assumed as he hasn't left the hospital since you arrived. If he isn't in here with you watching you sleep he is sat outside the door wide wake, making sure he knowns everyone that goes in and out. And its just an erm check up. To check your body is healing nicely. Right I will be going. I have my rounds to do. See you next week Miss Horn.' She quickly smiles and exits the room leaving me with my thoughts. I admit I have been cold and harsh to Brad. But how can I show kindness if I dont even know him.

Yesterday they told me about my life in basic terms. They basically told me that my mum left my dad and got with this complete dick, she then disowned me. After a few months my dad died and left me all this money to which led me to be here, travelling appartently. Brad also informed me that Jimmy had died. So everyone I could possibly care for is dead. How the fuck did that happen? It feels as if I've lost them all over again, every single piece of pain and memory about them came flooding back and I feel completely broken all over again. It hurts so much.

I quickly get dressed and head outside to be greeted by Brad, Jessie and the red head who I learnt to be Nathalie although she inists that we call her Nat. I look at them all as she smiles and I hug Jessie before turning my gaze to Nat. I look to her arm and see the faint scars, and one fresh. I freeze as I keep my gaze on her

-FlashBack-

'I love you Nat. Why wouldn't you tell me you done this to yourself?'
'I'm ashamed. Your going through alot just like me but the difference is I'm not strong like you. I can't handle it and I feel pathetic. I hate that this is my only way' She looks to the floor as I release her arm
'You promised us all you would stop.'
'I know. It just got too much. I am sorry'
'What got too much?'
'Constantly worrying where my parents are, the next bill that I have to pay because my dad stopped paying the full amount. The care routine for Jessie and her homework. My own coursework. Its all too much I cant do it. I am not strong enough'
'Shut up Nat. You are the most strongest and beautiful person I know. You handled all the hate and bullying from Holly and we beat her. You care for Jessie like a mother should, like your mother should. But you took that role with pride, love and strength. I know you struggle to get the money but you do. Have you ever missed a payment? NO. Its because you are incredible, you still manage to get A's and B's in your work. So dont stand there and tell me you cant do it, your not strong enough Because you are stronger than even you are aware of.' By the time I had finished talking, she was crying. I reach over and take her in my arms, kissing her hair as she sobs. As she regains control she smiles
'Thank you Mads'
'Nat We love you, please dont do this again, speak to me. Promise me instead of doing this you talk to me?'
'I promise'
-FlashBack end-

'Mads?' I hear Brad's deep and broken voice calling me, snapping me from my meomory and trance that I had while staring at her arm. I quickly stand and take her hand in mine, she looks confused and goes to speak but I speak first
'Nat... You promised you would talk to me. You promised you wouldnt. You promised me' She seems taken back by my words and somewhat confused, I subtly turn her hand, so her cuts face upwards and she soon realizes what I had been speaking about. I could see the tears in her eyes, I pull her into a tight embrace as she sobs into my arms, whispering 'sorry'.

When I let go I speak again 'Nat you need to stop. We will talk about this. I remember you I remember every memory with you in, but only you. No one else. Not yet'
'Thats great Mads. Your doing amazing. But what does Nat need to stop?' Brad speaks as he looks to Nat and then our still entwined hands he seems to notice what I was talking about. Panic waves over me, I was worried for his reaction. I mean boys don't know how to handle these things. But he suprised me once again 'Oh Nat. I am so sorry for not noticing sooner' he speaks so softly as he gently embraces her. Stroking her back as she burried her head into his chest. I felt happy, calm and proud of his actions.

'Lets get you two ladies home, you can watch some TV and rest' we both just nod in response as we make our way out of this plain old hospital.