happy | yeonbin

better off alone.

yeonjun walked away from soobin. why did soobin have to find out about this? out of all the people, soobin.

actually, he didn't want anyone to find out.

yeonjun was aware that he lied to soobin and sort of indirectly said that he caused these wounds by himself but he didn't want to tell soobin the truth. he didn't want anyone to know how fucked up his family was.

he didn't want anyone to know how fucked up he was.

it was not like anyone was going to save him.

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soobin walked home in daze. how long had this been going on? what was yeonjun going through that made him do this? was it family? or was it something else.

soobin was going crazy.

he wanted to help yeonjun. he really wanted to. but he knew yeonjun wouldn't let him help yeonjun.

soobin walked into the convinient store and saw hyunjin in it.

"oh, hyunjin." soobin called out.

hyunjin turned and saw him. he waved at soobin and called him over.

"came to bu---soobin what the hell happened to your hand?"

...his hand? soobin looked down at this hand and his eyes widened. yeonjun's blood had dried up on his hand.

"i accidently broke my hand mirror."

"that's not good, dude. my house is nearby. come over, i'll help you."

soobin nodded and followed hyunjin to his house.

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soobin waited outside the school gate, hoping to see yeonjun. he had brought a first aid kit with him so that he could treat yeonjun's wounds because he knew yeonjun wouldn't.

soobin saw yeonjun coming towards the school. soobin smiled widely and held the kit up and said, "yeo--"

yeonjun simply ignored him and walked past him. walked past him as if soobin didn't exist.

soobin frowned while feeling tiny pang in his chest. did yeonjun not see him? or did he ignore him on purpose?

soobin's mood was pretty dampened and then he saw taehyun, kai, and beomgyu enter the school.

they caught up to yeonjun and beomgyu had tightly gripped yeonjun's arm.

they didn't know. they didn't know about yeonjun's cuts.

soobin stood there staring at them. he wondered if he could ever be part of them. they looked so fun to be with.

soobin shook his head, getting rid of the stupid thoughts. he couldn't be friends with gays. he couldn't make the same mistake.

he promised his mother he wouldn't.

he had long realised that the world was cruel place.

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"dude, you didn't talk to soobin at all today." said kai, at the lunch table.

yeonjun tensed up a bit. he had seen soobin that morning, holding a first aid kit which yeonjun knew was for him. but he ignored him and went away.

"what do you mean? our project is over. i have no need to talk to him anymore."

"but didn't you say he was your bestie?" asked beomgyu, in a stiff tone.