Enna Sona [Ziam]

Forty Nine

"What!?"

Liam was not expecting that. What the hell!? Did he hear wrong?

Zayn stood up from where he was sat and walked towards the fence. He can't look at Liam right now. But he needs to get this out of his chest.

Liam stood up as well. And followed him to the fence.

"Zee.. Please tell me I heard you wrong. You want to end this? Us?"

Liam was about to cry. Why?? What did he do? Did he do something? But he was careful. They were okay. He has been good with Zayn all this time!

Zayn exhaled before turning to Liam. He can do this. He needs to do this.

"This is.. Li, we are best friends. We were and then stuff happened and I guess we are back to it. Right? I don't know but.. We are also married, but.. You know, the circumstances.. It wasn't meant to be like this. It should've been different. You should have married someone you love. Someone who deserves you. Not someone... like me."

What!? Liam looked at Zayn in confusion. Where was this coming from? But Zayn wasn't finished.

"I have always made your life miserable. It's always one thing or another with me. I get mad at you for literally nothing... And.. I know, between us, this whole, husbands thing won't work out. We are just.. This is not how it should be. This is not what you deserve.. So it's better if we end it when we are still friends. You don't have to do anything. I can tell our parents. They will understand. They have always wanted the best for us. They thought this was the best. But if they realise.. They wouldn't let you be stuck in this relationship with me. You deserve better."

What is Zayn saying!?

"I know you like Charlie."

Now Liam was in shock. Because, what!? No fucking way!! Charlie?! What in the world!?

"And he likes you back too. And.. You guys look.. Good. Together."

The effort it took him to say it. Zayn felt like he was having a cardiac arrest. Is this what heartbreak feels like?

"Zee.."

"No Liam.. I'm completely alright. I mean.. Look at me. I've always been the bad guy. A guy like you, you deserve someone who's sunshine and rainbows. Not me! I'm just.. Too much, you know? I can't stand most people. I'm almost always brooding. I can't even have a decent conversation with others..

And with you.. I am always fighting with you.. Always annoying you! And.. Charlie would take good care of you. You guys.. I'm not even mad. Honestly. I know Charlie is a great guy. And it's just meant to be, that's why he came back in your life, you know. You couldn't have him back in Uni, but now you can. And he's always been everyone's favourite. Just like you. You guys will make a great couple. The whole mohalla would love you two together. And.. And... "

Zayn hadn't realised, but tears were flowing down his cheeks. He was so focused on the pain in his chest that he didn't feel the wetness on his face.

"...He's nothing like me. He was always nice to you. And I'm just.. I've always messed with you, right? Like.. I don't deserve you.. Even though I want you. Why couldn't you fall in love with me instead? Why Charlie?"

Now Zayn was going off script. He did not plan confessing his feelings, but he had no control over his tongue right now. He sniffled and wiped his face with the back of his hand before continuing.

"-like, I get it.. He's better than me, in everything.. And we can't go from fighting everyday to getting married and being normal husbands like.. That would never happen, right?