Poems

Half-Way Stayed

I feel like I'm in another world

Feeling so alone

I feel like I'm in a separate life

Where did my home go

I listen to the same songs

But they don't mean the same 

I feel like life means nothing anymore

As if I live in a game

It is hard to move on

I feel like I'm running in mud

I don't know how to move forward

Here comes the next flood

I know I'm gonna drown

If I don't get out quick

I just cant make my legs move faster

Am I pulling bricks

I am trying hard to move forward

Leave my past behind

Create my new future

But they are now entwined

I waste my time

Getting them apart

Pulling the pieces

Out of my heart

What I've said in the past

Doesn't matter now

I'm trying to be a different person

As long as life allows

It is harder than you think

Moving on from my past

Those memories don't just go away

They're in my brain to last

I don't if I'll ever forget

The pain I felt those days

The ones when life seemed impossible

From which I ran away

Back when I didn't have help

Before anyone knew

I really did tell people back then

The number was just so few

I didn't know who I could trust

I'd been lied to before

I still don't know what to believe

Some words are just a trap door

One to my own little prison cell

One to send me away

Because the truth is, they don't know

That I'm not really okay

They think I've moved on

From all the pain

They think all that's left

Is the strength I'll gain

But the truth is that

I'm still so far away

My brain is the only thing

That has half-way stayed