You want to know what is on my mind
What I think about day and night
You want to know why I cry myself to sleep
Or how about why you don't here a peep
I still think about how you abandoned me
I just couldn't seem to get you to see
That was when I needed you most
Yet you disappeared just like a ghost
I didn't know how to stay strong
All I knew was how bad it was, wrong
All of it occurred right in front of the class
Those horrible memories will forever last
I guess I can't expect you to know
Why I wear band, why my wrists aren't shown
Because I will wake up in the middle of the night
My head filling my sleep with all of my fright
Fear that she is bound to come back
I'm scared that she will re-attack
I don't know if I'll survive if she does
I think my heart will probably bust
But you didn't listen, almost all year long
That is why I listen to my sad songs
You didn't believe me, when the truth was right here
I just wanted to go disappear
You said I didn't know what it was
I blame you, now, because
If you had believe me the first time I told you
If you had listened when I told you the truth
I wouldn't have dealt with that pain all year
I wouldn't wake up in the night, wanting to disappear
If you had just listened to me, you would've seen
Just how hard it was to come clean
Didn't you learn after my fifth grade year
Why coldn't you see that the truth was right here
Right before your very eyes
That was the struggle behind my cries
I guess that is why I can't seem to move on
And get passed all the sad time songs
The truth is what is on my mind
Is something that you cannot define
Because you didn't give me the chance to show you
What, in your heart, you should've known was true
So yes, mother, I do blame you
Because you didn't believe the truth
And now my friends ask why I lie
They also ask why I'm ashamed to cry
You called me a baby, and shot down my plea
And I only had one friend able to repair me
That is what hasn't left my mind
The story isn't over though, because that's just one side
There is also the parts where I tried to ignore it
The parts where I pretended it didn't hit
But the truth is that everything they said
Is the reason I lie in bed
Crying my eyes out before I go to sleep
But use a pillow, so you don't here a peep
My friends are the reason I'm still here today
And you are the one that walked away
I'm your daughter, I am supposed to be able to ask for your assist
That is one reason there are scars on my wrist
Because even after all I've been through
I still thought I could rely on you
But, I guess I was wrong, once again
The only ones I can believe in are my friends
That is why I tried to shut you out
That is why I decided to fake a pout
Because not only did you not help back then
But now you decide to agree with them
I don't want to hear it anymore
That is why I locked the door
Because you went with them, and called me that name
You, daddy, and buba are to blame
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Sorry for this one being so long, I just had a LOT to get off my chest. I understand that it i a little childish to call my dad daddy, and my brother buba, but that is just who I am. Live with it. I just wanted to show you guys my fun side, and also give you a chance to see part of the reason I am the person I am today. I just also want to promote a book I wrote when I first set up watt-pad. My First Story, but since that is such a common name, I might change it to Bullies In The Middle. Just a little heads up. It all just depends on how well that looks on a cover. If it doesn't look good, or I don't have the time ti change it, you can go to my user-page-thingy, and go to my works. You'll find it there. If you have already read it, then Great!! I have to go now, I have a dumb social studies project that makes no sense to me what-so-ever, that I have to finish. So, I'll see all of you wonderful butterflies later!! I promise to write another poem soon. Ok, bye.
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PoesíaI was going through some stuff in my room, and found an old book. It was full of these poems. I decided to share them with you. There is some deep stuff in here. I hope you enjoy it, and if you think it sucks, sorry. I guess I took it off of the pub...