Today was a different day
Today I felt OK
I had fun for a change
The feeling I got is hard to explain
I feel like my heart might just burst
With unicorns and rainbows, I'm such a girl
I can't believe I can feel this way
Just because of one day
I hope it doesn't go away
I don't want to pretend after today
I am tired of being scared all the time
I'm tired of sadness filling my rhymes
I want to be who I once was
The girl that was a lucky one
I don't know what happened to that girl
Aside from her being forced into the real world
I think our world put her in pieces
I found old pictures, they had fold creases
They were of the girl I was
Before I needed the caffeine buzz
Because I can't sleep at night
Nightmares make me full of fright
I want to be that girl again
The one that was an amazing friend
The one that hadn't grown up yet
The one that kept a butterfly as a pet
The one that could right poems of the sun
The one that knew how to truly have fun
I caught a glimpse of her today
It was the first time I wasn't afraid
In far too long for me to know
How to not put on a show
So I instead hid my feelings
Even though they were appealing
The smile on my face disappeared
I had truly volunteered
To come along, possibly have fun
Because I truly missed the sun
But I ended up wanting to hide
From the happiness I felt inside
I want to have that feeling back
Of flight in the air, no heart attack
I missed the dad I had out there
When we got home, his anger flared
I think he left his happiness behind
He is tired, and I hide
He is now a grump again
The dog's passed out on my bed
I haven't eaten, but I don't want to
The number of meals I've had are few
I slipped up a couple of times
Because I wanted happy rhymes
But I realize that I can't do that
I need to start a new habit
I know who I want to be
I need to move passed this version of me
I say goodnight, because I'm dry
I guess, for a while, this is goodbye
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Poems
PoesiaI was going through some stuff in my room, and found an old book. It was full of these poems. I decided to share them with you. There is some deep stuff in here. I hope you enjoy it, and if you think it sucks, sorry. I guess I took it off of the pub...