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Waiting (winter part 2) (MoonSun)

Solar

When the fireworks light up the sky and when the Soju bottles are opened and the sound of the glasses announces the arrival of the New Year, do think of me because I will be thinking of you!

I am here at the Han river. Writing what my heart feels in every piece of paper. As I sealed each scented papers with my kiss. As my lipstick marked on it.

It´s so annoying to be so far away when everyone else is in the company of their loved ones, celebrating and renewing their hopes. That´s why I feel a bit sad to be away; but it´s also at times like this that I renew my certainty that I we will be together soon, real close, celebrating our never ending love.

It's been 3 years when MAMAMOO disbanded.

And it's been 3 years when we last saw Moonbyul....

As the entertainment closed. We also broke up...

And It was my fault..

I was scared....

When people found out our relationship.... I decided to broke up with her. Without her knowing it. I just distance myself...

My love, we are on the verge of yet another year; but the love that feeds me is so solid and consistent that it seems to have been born with me. I am sure there is no distance in the world capable of shaking my feelings for you. There is no distance on the planet that can cool down my deep affection; on the contrary, this distance can only make me miss you even more and increase the desire to be with.

It's all my fault....

I am coward. ..

She fought for our relationship.. She's so selfless... Ready to sacrifice her own career just for our relationship..

But me?

I didn't do anything... 

I am selfish..

I didn't think about her feelings. All I want is to save our group. Even though, our relationship would be affected. But I did decided on my own. Without thinking what Moonby will felt after this.

I ended our relationship...

She asked me multiple times why I wanted to end it.  But I didn't told her anything..

"Are you breaking up with me? Kim Yongsun?"  Those words came from her. I know how hurt she is. But I just set aside our feelings for each other. For our career.

"I don't love you anymore. T-that's why I am breaking up with you" that's the biggest lie that I told in my entire life.  I wanna cry but I need to show her my blank expression. I don't want her to see me crying.

"I know you're lying. You're doing this cause you wanted to save the group right? The company? "  I knew how hurt she is. I am too. But I don't know what to do.

"I'm sorry M-moonbyul"  the only words that I can say.

"I won't bother you again Yongsun. Just tell me. Do you love me?"  This is the painful moments. I don't know how to respond. I do love her. But, I don't know if keeping our relationship while seeing our two younger members suffering was still right.  "So, this is the end right? HA-HA-HA. So goodbye? Please take of yourself Yongsun. I think I need to go. Please take care of yourself. I hope, if we met again, I'm still the one you love. Cause me? You're the first and last and the only one I love" The sweetest but painful last words I heard from her. As she smiled at me. Her tears flowing on her both cheeks. I'm not used seeing her like this. I broke her heart.

The night falls gently. And you are not here. I´m missing you more and more and I start getting worried as I stare at the door just waiting for you to surprise me with your arrival at any moment.

There's a lot of things that I wanted to tell you. I'm sorry for the pain I've caused.  I'm sorry for being coward. I'm sorry if I won't fight for our relationship. I'm sorry for breaking your heart. I'm sorry for being selfish.

You know something, my Byulie? I am missing you like crazy and when you arrive today, I will be overwhelmed with happiness just to see you again and tell you how much I love you. There's no time that I didn't thought of you. 

I suddenly felt this huge nostalgia of the days we had less worries and our minds and souls were exclusively devoted to each other´s pleasure and satisfaction.
I´m not exactly complaining, you know, I am just remembering the old times when our smiles were more spontaneous, when we found more fun and joy in our strolls and when just being together was, in itself, a wonderful date.

I took another scented paper to write my last letter for her.  And put my heart on this piece of paper.  

As I wrote the last words, my tears are flowing. At the same time, I did telling every words I am writing like she's just right here beside me.

For the last time. I wanted to shout how much I love her.

Until we meet again, I leave you with my sincere wishes of good health, peace, prosperity, wealth and happiness. We will soon see and hug each other again and tell you how much I love you.

I folded the last paper, and put it into the box. My hopes of seeing her again slowly fading.

As I stood and preparing to throw this box of letters. I sealed it with a kiss.

"You have no idea how much I would love to have you near, how much I would love to rest on your shoulder, listening to our music, watching our performance and holding hands. It may sound silly, but it’s these simple things that make me miss you even more. I don't know when or where we can meet again. I don't know if you're still alive or you already have special someone. And I don't know you still love me. But I do. I do still love you. But I don't think if still anysense  of keeping this box of letters. I don't have any clue about you. If there's a time that we met, am I still the only one you love?"  As I shout everything as if Moonbyul can heard it. Call me crazy but I am really hoping that wind can pass this message to her and answer me right away.

I am ready to throw the box at the river when a familiar deep voice came out behind me

"I still love you Kim Yongsun"

It's her.....

I turned my back to face who's speaking. As I see her face, My tears flows like a river.

"M-moonbyul you're back. You -"

Moonbyul smiled. And started caressing my cheek, erasing tears from my face together with those bad and sad memories we both have.

"I am Yongsun. I heard everything....... And yes. I still love you."

"I'm back and never leave you again"