Tired ~dnf

chapter 4.5

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Tws: Suicide attempt, self-harm, eating disorders

*Clays pov*

We had just finished the movie The Princess Bride. My arm was around George and his hand was on my thigh. He kissed me on the cheek then got up to go make us lunch and didn't bother asking me what I wanted because he knew the answer would be 'nothing'. He isn't wrong though, if I could I would eat nothing. But I have George here watching what feels like my every move, it's weird. I mean I guess it's kinda necessary but it's so annoying. I can't do anything without feeling like he's breathing on my neck. At least I know he cares. He's the only one who cares.

*George's pov*

I knew he didn't want to eat. I know how stubborn he is.. it just breaks me to see him like this. He doesn't want to eat but he wants me to be happy. I know he wants me to be happy. I'm gonna make lunch for the both of us while we watch another movie.

Flash forward (also really really big TW right here; suicide attempt)

*Clays pov*

I can't keep doing this every god damn time. Every fucking time someone helps me they just make it worse. He didn't know it but I had a full bottle of pills under the bathroom sink behind all the cleaners.

"George I can't do this anymore" I shoved the pills down my throat as my boyfriend watched me while sobbing and running towards me. Everything was starting to happen in slow motion. I could hear George's sobs but they were muffled, almost as if I was underwater.

*Georges pov*

"NO NO NO NO" I screamed while sobs escaped my mouth. This cant be it. I continued running to Clay as fast as I could and made him throw up the pills before he passed out. It was close. to close.

"Clay what the fuck you promised...."

*End flash forward*

Hey guys sorry for the short chapter again, the full chapter will be out later today :)