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Chapter 6- A conversation (2)

Date: unknown

Location: 1. World (Oritsu), a camp just set up in front of the Devil's Horns

Kaito sat lost in thoughts on a fallen tree . For now he had decided to postpone his plans to get rid of the team. His main priority now was to survive, and until he hadn't developed his power he was forced to rely on the rest of the group. The battle, which had only recently been over, was a severe blow to the mission because of the high losses, especially because of Chariti's death.

Mukanshin afterwards had made a big riot. He would have run back to the swampy lizard nest by himself to look for his sister if the others hadn't stopped him. "We can't help it anymore, it's already too late and we don't want to lose another man," were Shūkyō's words. He then tried to use his powers to keep the team away from him and return anyway, but luckily Don'yoku was able to prevent this.

They had set up a little camp to protect them from the stormy rain. The campfire, the natives said, would keep the lizards away from them for now. After everyone had recovered somewhat and all wounds had been bandaged, they would have to continue walking to the Devil Horns. 

Aima came to him. "Come on, let's comfort Boryōku a little," she suggested. Since he had nothing to do at the moment, he just joined in.

"Hi," he mumbled at him and sat down with Aima next to him. Mukanshin was silent. "I lost my mother," Aima began the conversation.

"Me too, but my sister ..." said Kaito.

Aima looked at him in amazement. "You didn't tell me about that"

"Why should I have," he muttered.

"Go away, I want to be alone," Mukanshin said quietly. There were tears in his eyes.

"It's good to be alone, but when others support you, it's always better," replied Aima, whereupon Kaito grimaced. He had been alone for years and always got along. But he didn't like anyone either, so this was no wonder.

"When I lost my mother, I just wanted to be alone. If my best friend hadn't always been there for me, even though I pushed him away from me very often, I wouldn't exist on this world anymore. When I look back, I can see that he only wanted the best for me and then pulled it off regardless if I didn't want it because he knew it would be the right thing in the end. How was the relationship between you and your parents, Kaito? "

Kaito laughed scornfully. "My mother cheated on my father with his best friend, whereupon he killed him out of sheer anger. He ended up in jail and me and my sister in the orphanage, at the age of 6. But even so, I can't remember a single nice moment with them. My sister was the only thing close to my heart. Until the world took her from me too .. "

Then Mukanshin began to speak: "Chariti..it was only us and nobody else. We were one heart and one soul and nothing could separate us. We were always there for each other .. or she was there for me, because I had more problems than her .. I still remember how a boy from my elementary school stole my lunch every day until one day she beat him up. She was the best older sister anyone could have asked for. She had been my Idol from birth on. But now... now she's gone and I'm suddenly alone.

How quickly death can come to everyone ... but what I really ask myself ... Why do we humans even exist? Why does this world exist? This galaxy, this universe? You work all your life until you can retire as an old man .. at that age you can't do as many fun things as you did when you were younger .. and then? Then you die, and what did you achieve?

Maybe a great car, a big house, or a nice family. But what good is all of this for you when you end up having to leave the world and lose everything? Simply everything that you have struggled to fight for in your entire life is lost in the blink of an eye. Just like that, so suddenly and mercilessly.

Of course, you can now say: That's why it makes the most sense to have as much fun as possible and have the best time possible with your family. But I think to myself, why should I develop bonds with people when sooner or later I have to lose them? In the end you get nothing but pain and anger. If you have nothing to lose, you can't lose anything "

Kaito was silent. He had thought exactly the same when he lost his little Yuri. And that was exactly what moved him to banish all of his emotions and exclude anyone who could get too close to him.

Mukanshin continued. "But then I come to the conclusion that this is part of life. You just have to accept it, because you will never understand it anyway. You just rack your brains the longer you discuss it. At this point you have to stop thinking and just accept it as it is, no matter how hard it seems"

Kaito was puzzled. He had never thought like that before, and he found the thought hideous. "You're nothing but weak," he replied, suddenly full of displeasure. "You keep your weakness voluntarily, although you could throw it away! Look at me! I don't have a single weakness! I banned them all from my life! All! I have not spared a single one, I have thrown away everything that prevents me from achieving my goal, namely to be the greatest, smartest and strongest! They all! And what did I become? A man without weaknesses! What about you? You are nothing!!"

"Kaito .." Aima said surprised and a little angry.

"Let him", said Mukanshin. "Kaito, I can understand you well. But what you couldn't seem to grasp was that strength isn't about not having weaknesses, it's about being able to accept them and learn from them. The weaknesses are exactly what make you strong! You are a fool to believe that you can brutally crush all your weaknesses and strive to be the greatest! By not dealing with your weaknesses, you will only break even more! You cannot let a wound heal properly without first cleaning it, otherwise it will fester! By thinking that you are the best, you are overlooking all of the much taller men in front of you! And your wounds are still buried deep inside you, you just don't notice them "

Kaito stood up indignantly. "I won't argue with someone like you!"

Then he went somewhere else where he could be alone. Alone, like he always had been. Well, almost always ..

For the first time in his life he had no meaningful answer to counter.

And on that lonely noon he suddenly missed his little sister more than ever before.