felix decided he was going to tag along for our new years eve get together after jaemin was invited and unfortunately, hyunjin invited ara. god i was so angry but i tried my best not to express it.
a few hours before everyone else shows up, felix came to my front door saying he wanted to help get ready. we weren't really having that fancy of a dinner, it was more snack stuff and loads of desserts so we could ring in the new year with a stomach full of an abundance of delicious things.
i chop up an onion as the boy talks to me. "are you sure you're not mad about ara coming?" felix asks me and i put on a fake smile as i slice the knife through the vegetable.
"mad? why would i be mad about ara coming" my slices get slightly more violent while i answer his question. "why would i be mad that hyunjin was falling in love with the girl that ruined both of our childhoods" there they go getting even more violent. "why would i be mad that hyunjin is now breaking our traditions because of her, which i was worried about" the chops were more violent than i have ever done before.
felix's eyes slowly get wide as i hold composure over my face.
"why lix? why would i be mad at the fact that she's the biggest, rudest, most self centered bi-" i'm cut off by the slicing of my own finger. i slice right across and quickly drop the knife on the cutting board. stepping away from it.
"motherfucker" i whisper to myself as blood quickly trickles down my finger. "jesus, moonie" felix runs over and grabs a towel, holding pressure onto the wound. i can feel a heartbeat in the finger that is sliced open.
"is there blood in the onions?" i ask him and he just shakes his head. "why are you worried more about the onions than your own well being?!" he continues to hold pressure on it. "i don't see any blood, do you see any?" i try to peer around him but he blocks my view. "stop worrying about that and worry about the fact that your finger is literally bleeding out" felix says to me and i just shrug.
"ill be okay, it's just a cut, if i die, i die" i shrug and he shakes his head. "that's not the right mindset to have moonie" he tells me and i shrug yet again.
benny walks around my feet and i smile when i see the black cat. "hi benny boy" i coo down to him. "moonie will you listen to me?!" he asks and i snap my head up to him. "what?"
