i get into the passenger seat of jaemins car. it feels weird that he's the one driving and i'm the one in the passengers seat. usually i'm the one that has control of the wheel and it's unnatural that i don't.
after the both of us are all buckled up, jaemin turns to look at me. "are you safe?" he asks and i nod. it is a small little thing he'd always say if he was buckled or not in the car. the one time i started driving and he wasn't buckled yet, he screamed at me, "i'm not safe yet!"
it was quite funny. the two of us laughed about it and it became a small little inside joke between us.
as we drive to wherever he's taking me, a song plays through the speaker, one from the playlist he made me. when he sent the link to me with the message, "songs that make me think about you," my heart leapt out of my chest. he was too kind to me.
"strawberries and cigarettes always taste like you" he sings and i notice the beauty of his voice. he could be an idol with the niceness of his voice. he could rap better than he could sing, either or his voice is made to be heard by millions of people.
my eyes stay on him as we drive and when we're stopped by a stoplight, he turns to look at me. "what?" he laughs and i shake my head. "nothing, nothing."
jaemins eyebrows furrow and i softly laugh. "what?!" he repeats himself and the smile on my face grows as i turn to look at the traffic. "you're just something else, i don't know" i tell him and i watch as he turns away from me. i know by his actions that he's blushing hard.
my hand rests on the center console and before i know it he takes my hand in his.
the stoplight tells us to go and as we do i suddenly question the boy about where we're going. "don't worry about it" he says and i frown. "i hope it's not someplace fancy, i'm only in this."
i look down at my outfit, i'm covered in a hoodie and an old raggedy pair of sweatpants. not fancy even in the slightest. i look like i had just rolled out of my dear bed, the one i didn't even want to leave in the first place.
i know if i argued with him and disagreed about leaving my house, jaemin would bother with me till i said i wanted to go. so in the end, he would really get whatever he wanted no matter what.
