a month or so goes by after the infamous new year's eve kiss. a lot changed in very little time and although i wasn't leaving yet, change still seemed to happen quite rapidly.
i didn't like it, not one bit.
my letters to hyunjin dwindled down to being sent maybe once every week or so. they were mostly ones where i talked about my slow loss of feelings for him because of the realization that i knew i deserved better, knowing i shouldn't spend my life hung up on someone that does not want me back.
but other than those letters, no more sappy ones were sent.
to be honest, after new year's eve, hyunjin's appearances with us lessened and lessened. he hung out more with ara and the same friends that ruined our elementary and middle school years.
i think it upset the boys more than it upset me, they sulked in his absence and whenever he would hang out with us, they'd get so excited just to be disappointed in the end.
i felt bad i truly did.
"moonie" chan nudges my elbow and i open my eyes, looking around. i hadn't even realized that i was slowly falling asleep till he awoke me.
"what?" i question him. i rub my eyes before stretching my entire body out, a few bones in my body pop and crack, it sounds much like a bag of popcorn.
"have you talked to hyunjin?" he asks me and i shake my head, cozying back into the cushions on his couch. the two of us watch a movie together after i went over for some advice about jaemin.
"not since," i tuck my knees into my chest as i think, "last week, maybe i don't know. maybe even longer?"
his eyes widen slightly, "really?"
my head shakes in a nod. "wow" is all that passes through chan's lips. i would like to say i am as surprised as him but i'm really not. i could tell that after he would open up to her, she'd steal him right from us. that was the only really sucky part about all of this.
"it's not really that much of a surprise" i tell chan and his head cocks to the side. "really?" he asks me and i nod again. "yeah, i could tell ara was going to take him."
