My Very Own Love Story (a high school romance) (on hold)

Chapter 21

Chapter 20

It’s been about two weeks since I broke up with John, and I still feel really good. I’m actually a lot happier single than I was with him. When I pass him in the hallways, sometimes he’ll watch me with this longing look on his face, but other time’s he completely ignores me which I’m fine with. I know I shouldn’t be saying this, but I think I really like that James kid that I talked to a little bit back. Every time I see him in the halls, his eyes are like practically glued to me. But he is one of John’s friends, and ever since the break up, most of John’s friends watch me. Some like I’m an experiment, others with a pissed look. Most of the time I just smile at them, except James. For some reason, I catch my self staring back at him. I always get this feeling, and its like nothing I’ve felt before. Its not a bad feeling, but its still hard to explain. Well anyways, today was the last day before Christmas vacation, and right now I’m standing at my locker getting my stuff out. I’m excited. I can’t wait all this drama to go away, well for a short period anyway. Just as I’m shutting my locker I see a flash of black coming around the corner. I turn around ready to walk out the door and notice its James heading for his bus. I smile at him and then head out to go home.

It’s two days after Christmas and I feel like shit. I’ve been sick since two days after school let out, it hasn’t been fun at all. My symptoms have changed everyday. One day I had a stomach ache, another my throat hurt. And then the day before x-mas I lost my voice, not like when people say “oh I’ve lost my voice” but can still talk in a hoarse whisper, I mean legitally lost my voice, as in couldn’t talk if my life depended on it. I’ve been staying with my gram ever since the twenty-fifth, and haven’t been doing much other than sleeping. Maybe I would feel a little bit better if I hadn’t run out one night in a tee shirt and uggs trying to catch snowflakes with my tongue. But oh well! Like I said I haven’t been doing much, it gets kind of tiring to stand up and I get an awful headache so I’ve just kinda stayed away from being up to long. I haven’t been able to eat anything for a couple days, and have just started to get fluids back into my body. I have been so thirsty, I probably could drink the whole ocean and still have thirst! I’m bored so yah know I’m doing what all teens do these days...FACEBOOK!! I was also on meebo talking to Trevor something that I hadn’t done in awhile. But speaking of facebook, guess who just wrote me? Yeah thats right James did, which I found odd, because he hasn’t talked to me on here since that time he asked how John was doing. This convo started out similar, only because John was mentioned in it. But the question was dumb kind of, because the answer was obvious. Look, you can even see for yourself.

James: u still going out with john?

me: no

James: o thats right, u guys broke up awhile ago, who u with now?

me: no one

I mean seriously why would he ask that? He proceeded to ask a bunch of questions like what I liked to do, my favorite color, music, and stuff like that. After he told me he wanted to hang out sometime, which I thought was nice so I agreed. After awhile he asked if I thought he was hot and got into questions about my past relationships which I thought was awkward. Because I mean, why would he care right? And eventually he randomly complimented my eyes which made me smile and laugh a little bit. When I said thanks he told me for the record I was cute and he thought we should webcam sometime, which made me smile even bigger, blush a little bit, and laugh more.

It was about three in the morning and I was still talking to James. We ended up talking for four hours straight. I was still talking to Trevor also. Trevor and I decided to see who could stay up longest. In the hours we’ve been up talking told him about everything that had been going on in the past few weeks, and even about James. He said he wanted to know what James looked like so I sent him a pic. His response? “Is he gay? Cuz he looks like a faggot” Of course Trevor always has to be a douche and douche up the moment, but its pretty funny at times. I told him no and he left it at that. Haha just kidding! Trevor leave something like that alone as if. At some point we got into a conversation about gay guys and four-somes, ask if you want but I don’t even know how we got into that conversation. But anyway Trevor dared me to ask James if gay guys liked four-somes, it was a dare so I pretty much had to take it.

me: my friend dared me to ask this (not implying your gay) but do gay guys like 4ways?

James: im sure they do, would be like a train. chu-chu!!

At this I cracked up and almost died laughing. I sent Trevor exactly what was said, and he too laughed really hard. Then he told me that one day he hoped someone would ask him that, so he could say it out loud too. I swear guys can be crack heads sometimes! It was about six, which meant at this time I’d been talking to James for about six hours straight, and hadn’t gotten bored once. Neither had he, so we were doing good. But he was tired, and so he dropped out.

I woke up at about nine the next morning meaning I had about two hours of sleep. I surprisingly wasn’t tired. Last night an hour after James went to bed, I did too. Trevor won the contest but I didn’t care, because I made a new friend. Tonight we were supposed to webcam, and I was a lil scared. I still wasn’t feeling the best. I sounded really congested, and looked like rudolph the red nose reindeer no joke. It was SO not funny. At about seven that night I jumped in the shower and tried my best to make my self look decent which took about two hours, getting my hair right, and trying to adjust the light in the living room so you couldn’t see the redness of my nose and all that good stuff. Finally when I was done he got on skype and wrote me.

James: u ready to cam?

me: no not really, but before i turn it on, promise me u wont laugh

James: why?

me: just promise me

James: fine i promise

I took his word for it and called him soon after turning on my camera and putting my head phones in so I could hear him.

“You don’t look that bad!” He said at first.

“Uhm yeah right stop your lying. Thank god my nose doesn’t look to red right now though.” I said looking through the skype screen.

“Psh it looks adorable! And as always you look pretty cute yourself just sayin’.” He told me which made me blush and then smile really big.

We spent hours on the webcam and it was fun, really fun. At one point he asked if I was happy and I said no, because I was sick and junk so he decided to make my night better and ask me out. I was shocked at first but then said yes. Honestly I shouldn’t have said yes. I mean yeah, I thought he was cute and there was something on the inside pulling me towards saying yes, but my biggest reasons weren’t as good. One of them was that he and John were friends and I knew that would make John upset. Also I was lonely, and sorta desperate, just not desperate enough to go after anyone. But besides those reasons, something in my heart was saying to go for it anyway, so I listened. So here I was twelve-thirty at night listening to my heart and telling some kid yes I would date him, even though I had two okay reasons.