hi there. so i just want to let you know that i'll be taking a break from updating this book. this is because my mental state has really plummeted and is currently at the worst it has ever been. you may not want to read this part since it is just me letting all my emotions out into this chapter, but if you do stay. thank you.
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i currently feel like the worst person in existence and i understand how that is really unhealthy.
the way i am coping with my negative emotions is okay in some cases but unhealthy in others and i understand that.
my self-worth is the lowest i have ever known it to be and i don't know how I can make it raise back to what it used to be.
i'm not even trying to get help and instead masking it with 'i'm fine' or 'everything is okay', if i'm asked.
it makes me relieved that nobody has noticed when i have my down times or am in an absolutely terrible state.
i sometimes find myself eating a lot on some days, whereas, on others, i don't feel like eating for the entire day.
i know i should probably seek help, but i feel as if keeping it all to myself will be much better and it'll turn out just fine.
i hardly ever do my schoolwork and just lay around in my pyjamas for most of the day even when i've been told to change.
if i do get changed into day-to-day clothes, they are normally extremely baggy and cover up most if not all of my body.
sometimes i catch myself thinking 'what if i could just fall asleep and never wake up?' and these thoughts make me feel slight joy.
i always think about how all of my friends and those that i am close to hate me, and think i am annoying
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(i may update this if i have anymore negativity i feel the need to get out and share to the public)
i am incredibly sorry if you just see this as trash and none of your business, but i just needed to let it all out.
i am also not doing this for attention/clout or more views. if you see it in that way, you do you but it is not any way for attention/clout.
if you made it this for, i send my deepest thank yous and wish you all the best in life.
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